For those brave souls who stuck around, bless you.
My home life is overwhelming me. I haven't done a deep cleaning of the house since before Christmas. For those who can't do the math, that means it was over a month ago. Speaking of Christmas, my outside decorations just got taken down last week. Oh, the Christmas tree and inside decorations? They are still up. Sulking that I am ignoring them. Our dinning room table is piled full of random shit. I even found a bag with bananas I forgot to eat. Don't even bother asking when I bought the bananas, I couldn't tell you.
My school life is overwhelming me, too. After dealing with bronchitis, pleurisy, a double ear infection, and a ruptured ear drum, you can only imagine how fogged up my brain has been. I don't know about you, but math doesn't make much since when you're having an around-the-clock Vicodin party. Luckily, with the new medication and a little time for healing, this week my brain is starting to finally absorb the materials we learn in class, but now I have the joy of playing catch up. I've had something major due every day this week and I have three tests next week. I'm seriously on the verge of tears. I am exhausted.
I've got other things I'm dealing with that I can't really talk about right now, things that are stirring up a lot of emotions, anxiety, and grief. I saw my Pastor yesterday, but she wasn't much help. I can't really blame her. There are no real answers. Even so, I've made an appointment to see my therapist again next week. I wanted to see her this week, but she's full. So, instead, I've got a lunch date with at least one girlfriend this week, who I know will let me vent and give me good advice.
Basically, I need a week to decompress and get my shit in gear, but it's not going to happen until at least March. Can someone at least come over and clean the house and take down the Christmas decorations for me? Please? Thanks.




5 comments:
Life sucks...........
P.S. My house needs cleaned & my Christmas tree & inside decorations are still up also!
If it makes you feel better, my Christmas tree is still up, too. And I don't know when it's coming down. Perhaps when we move north, and only then because it has to. I kid, I kid, but seriously, I have no idea when it's gonna get put away.
I know how you feel. I'm in a similar spot (except I barely got the Christmas decorations up so it didn't take much time to get them down!) - work is so busy that I've been neglecting almost everything else. I'll cross my fingers that both our lives calm down soon!
I can't even imagine all the crap you've been going through. If I was closer, I'd come over and take down your Christmas tree for you. I took mine down at 5pm THE DAY OF CHRISTMAS! Ha!
I feel this same way from time to time. I'm not sure what shifts it back but I hope you find it soon. <3 from ICLW.
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