It's currently a little after 3 in the morning, and I've been up for about an hour and a half, despite having only fallen asleep some time in the 10 o'clock hour. Oh, sweet body o' mine, you slay me.
My living room is spotless clean in the first time in awhile. The Christmas trees are up, and the fall decorations are down. Yes, I said Christmas treeS. I only put up three trees this year, but when we move into a house in a few years, we will have one in every room.
Speaking of Christmas trees, I changed themes on our main tree for the first time in like seven years. I went with a red, white, and lime colored theme as opposed to the blue, silver, white, and snowman theme. It turned out really cute! I also put up A's pink Christmas tree by the TV. I hodge-podged the decorations on there, because I know she would have done the exact same thing. I also put the Charlie Brown Christmas tree on the side table because NYEBoy would have a fit if it stayed in the box.
I guess since I am having trouble sleeping, I am going to tackle the kitchen, dining area, and stairway before I have to run some errands in a few hours. The maintenance guys will be coming to check out our roof/window area in the living room where the leak has turned into mold. Not very happy about this, considering I informed them months ago about the leak.
I have a couple of errands to run today in preparation for Thanksgiving. It'll be our first Thanksgiving alone. Someone told me it'll be what I make of it, but I am not used to this. I don't like this. I used to enjoy family gatherings, even if we were/are a dysfunctional family. I don't get to see my grandmother and enjoy her cooking. I don't get to see family that I miss. But, I just can't be apart of a family that values me so little that they didn't stand up for me two Thanksgiving ago. Family, that for two years, has refused to apologize for that. They don't have to apologize for my uncle's hateful words he spewed that day, it's not their fault he said them, but they should apologize for letting it get out of hand and not asking him to stop.
But, this is my life now, day-to-day it's not as bad, but the holidays are really, really tough for me.
I'm also finishing up some school work as finals loom near. I'm looking forward to being back on campus in January. I'm grateful to ability to work on school from home over the summer and fall, especially considering all the health problems I have been dealing with, but it's just not the same.
The weather has been really nice lately, some times even down right hot. One of the great things about living in Florida is having our windows up (and sweating!) in November. I guess it makes the miserable summers worth it.
Well, I need to part ways from this keyboard and head into the kitchen to make room for our fruit and veggie box I need to go pick up in a few hours. I hope you're all starting your week off well. Safe travels for those who will be traveling this holiday week.
Tuesday, November 20
Wednesday, November 14
Five Times, Two Weeks
The nurse called me yesterday morning while I was helping with our CSA-type boxes. I returned her call to find out the doctor wanted me coming back in for more blood work. Why they didn't think to run these tests while I was there the day before was annoying, but it is what it is.
After I dropped NYEBoy off at work, I made the almost hour drive back to the doctor's office. I called my grandmother, like I always do, and we talked while I drive. I always put the phone on speaker and slip it under my right shoulder bra strap as sort of a hands-free style. lol
The front desk lady just laughed and asked me why I was back. (Yesterday, she said she was putting me on the payroll.) I told her "y'all called me". I waited for a bit and the nurse came out to come get my blood.
Last week, she asked where I wanted it taken from and I told her they have been having trouble lately with my arms, so it's been easier to get it out of my hands. She made a big fuss about how the hands hurt a lot and tried to get it out of my arms. She tried twice in my arms before finally giving up and going for my hand. This week, she reluctantly decided to go for my hands first, but I could tell she didn't really want to. The first stick she barely even tried, and of course it didn't work. So, she tried on the other hand. It worked, but I'm pretty sure she was trying to prove to me that hands hurt because she dug all around with that needle. Ughh. Of course it's super sore and bruised today.
Man, how I wish I had my good veins back!
The doctor decided to re-run my hep panels so he could get approval for the liver ultrasound. (It was negative a few months ago, so I am not really expecting a change in that.) Apparently, he's decided he's not comfortable waiting a month to see the lab results before deciding on an ultrasound. The hep panel may come back today, or tomorrow at the latest. And I believe we'll be getting the ultrasound next week.
Anyways, I'll keep you all updated per usual. Thanks for the prayers and support!
Yesterday's office visit marked the 5th visit in two weeks to the doctor. I'm pretty sure I should be be getting a free copay at some point, right? Lol Buy five, get one free.
After I dropped NYEBoy off at work, I made the almost hour drive back to the doctor's office. I called my grandmother, like I always do, and we talked while I drive. I always put the phone on speaker and slip it under my right shoulder bra strap as sort of a hands-free style. lol
The front desk lady just laughed and asked me why I was back. (Yesterday, she said she was putting me on the payroll.) I told her "y'all called me". I waited for a bit and the nurse came out to come get my blood.
Last week, she asked where I wanted it taken from and I told her they have been having trouble lately with my arms, so it's been easier to get it out of my hands. She made a big fuss about how the hands hurt a lot and tried to get it out of my arms. She tried twice in my arms before finally giving up and going for my hand. This week, she reluctantly decided to go for my hands first, but I could tell she didn't really want to. The first stick she barely even tried, and of course it didn't work. So, she tried on the other hand. It worked, but I'm pretty sure she was trying to prove to me that hands hurt because she dug all around with that needle. Ughh. Of course it's super sore and bruised today.
Man, how I wish I had my good veins back!
The doctor decided to re-run my hep panels so he could get approval for the liver ultrasound. (It was negative a few months ago, so I am not really expecting a change in that.) Apparently, he's decided he's not comfortable waiting a month to see the lab results before deciding on an ultrasound. The hep panel may come back today, or tomorrow at the latest. And I believe we'll be getting the ultrasound next week.
Anyways, I'll keep you all updated per usual. Thanks for the prayers and support!
Yesterday's office visit marked the 5th visit in two weeks to the doctor. I'm pretty sure I should be be getting a free copay at some point, right? Lol Buy five, get one free.
Tuesday, November 13
Randomness
I didn't mean to stop posting, but holy hell it was way too emotional to finish NYEBoy's birthday posts. I'll try to get back on to that soon. Between his birthday week, Halloween, and the election, I was just really missing A a lot.
With Halloween I was wondering what we would have dressed up as. With the election, I couldn't help but think of how four years ago things were so different and how she was actually with us election night.
I'm doing a bit better this week so far with that. Some times there are just going to be triggers and you just have to roll with it.
I'm back at the doctors a lot lately. Four times in two weeks. The nurse laughed that she was going to put me on the payroll. Apparently my liver is really bad. It should be under 40 and it's at 145 right now. We highly suspect it's from the pharmacy mishap back in May. I haven't been on a whole lot of medications lately that would cause the massive increase. We're going to retest it again in a month to see if it's on the increase or decline. It's scary. The doctor was trying to put me on three different medications for other health reasons, but decided the risk was too great for two of them. We're going to try one and see how the liver handles it. It's so frustrating.
I don't know if it has anything to do with my liver or not, but my normal appetite has been weird lately. I used to have to eat like a baby, every two hours, three tops, I was staaaaaaaaaarved. Lately, I'm not hungry at all. Over the weekend all I wanted was soup, chicken nuggets, and a vanilla milkshake. Weird.
I'm in the middle of putting up our Christmas decorations. I wasn't in the best of mood lately and I thought if I put some of them up I would feel better. Of course I also decided to switch themes for the first time in like seven years, so it's a hot mess in the living room right now.
Thanksgiving is next week. How did that happen?
With Halloween I was wondering what we would have dressed up as. With the election, I couldn't help but think of how four years ago things were so different and how she was actually with us election night.
I'm doing a bit better this week so far with that. Some times there are just going to be triggers and you just have to roll with it.
I'm back at the doctors a lot lately. Four times in two weeks. The nurse laughed that she was going to put me on the payroll. Apparently my liver is really bad. It should be under 40 and it's at 145 right now. We highly suspect it's from the pharmacy mishap back in May. I haven't been on a whole lot of medications lately that would cause the massive increase. We're going to retest it again in a month to see if it's on the increase or decline. It's scary. The doctor was trying to put me on three different medications for other health reasons, but decided the risk was too great for two of them. We're going to try one and see how the liver handles it. It's so frustrating.
I don't know if it has anything to do with my liver or not, but my normal appetite has been weird lately. I used to have to eat like a baby, every two hours, three tops, I was staaaaaaaaaarved. Lately, I'm not hungry at all. Over the weekend all I wanted was soup, chicken nuggets, and a vanilla milkshake. Weird.
I'm in the middle of putting up our Christmas decorations. I wasn't in the best of mood lately and I thought if I put some of them up I would feel better. Of course I also decided to switch themes for the first time in like seven years, so it's a hot mess in the living room right now.
Thanksgiving is next week. How did that happen?
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