A New Bathing Suit

Literally, about thirty steps from our front door is the swimming pool. For several weeks now, I hear screams of kids or glance over there and see the adults swimming in the pool. My heart mourns that A isn't here, because I know we'd already have been, but I just can't bring myself to go alone.

Plus, I don't have a bathing suit that fits comfortably. I'm the biggest I've ever been, and that cute one piece I bought a few years ago, reminds me that I don't have the body I once had.

NYEBoy has been telling me to go get a bathing suit, but I am sure you other women know how much FUN that is. {insert eye roll}

I finally decided to go shopping today, though. It's been in the 90s and walking by that blue pool every day makes me jealous! So, I put on my big girl panties and hit the mall with NYEBoy this afternoon. I checked out Dillards and Lane Bryant, but neither had anything for me. The lady at Lane Bryant told me we had a Torrid now, so I decided to check them out.

I've never been to Torrid before and I've honestly had this preconceived notion about the people that shop there, nothing bad, but I just never thought the store was my type of store. To be honest, the same thing with Lane Bryant. I've just never shopped at those stores.

When I walked in, two girls were working and they welcomed me very friendly. I asked if they had any bathing suits, and she walked me over to the area. She was bigger than I am, but had so much more self confidence than I do. I felt comfortable, not shameful for shopping in that store.

She asked what I liked, I told her the tankini style, but I wanted something that wasn't too tight around the mid-section, and something that would work with my open heart surgery scar and left breast. (For those of you who don't know, I had open heart surgery as a baby and although it saved my life, they cut the left breast tissue and basically I don't have a breast below the left nipple.}

She picked out a few things and I tried them on. The bottoms ended up working, but for the life of me, I could not find a top! I was about ready to give up when she said they had one more to try. I decided to give it one more chance because I could tell NYEBoy wanted me to pick SOMETHING. (He really wanted me to be happy and get in the damn pool! lol)

It worked. It was perfect. The bottoms have a ruffle, but the top is slimming. it doesn't draw attention to my left breast and it covers my scar all the way around my back. Best of all, it makes me FEEL beautiful. I don't feel like a lard ass getting ready to go swimming, I feel like a woman.




I was very, very appreciative to the sales lady that worked with me. She made me feel very good and not ashamed to be a bigger girl. I plan on writing a letter to the store owner. Hell, I'll probably even send one to the lady. 
I will be shopping there again, for sure. It's probably the only store I'll ever fit into a size 1 any way. Lol 
The swim suit ran me $90, but if you're looking for a suit that makes you feel good, please go find your local store and give them a try. You can print off a 10% coupon from their website, too. They also have a DiveStyle rewards program, so you can even save an additional 5% on all items once you reach a certain point level. 
I can't wait to go back!