I've been wanting to get back on the Low Amylose diet again sometime since the end of September, after the miscarriage. I would say I was going to start on Monday, but then things got pushed back week after week. And then there was HALLOWEEN! and THANKSGIVING! and CHRISTMAS! and OUR ANNIVERSARY!
And here I am, a week into the new year really wanting to start it back up. Except, there is one {big} problem. My biggest fear about getting on this diet is my cycle coming back and me having another miscarriage. It's the physical pain of a miscarriage, it's the emotional side to a miscarriage, and it's also how much it messed up my schooling.
It's hard to understand, but the custody case and the miscarriage both took a HUGE toll on my brain. I can't retain or understand shit when I am going through such a hard time. I think my therapist said it was your body protecting itself or something. The only cure for this is time. Not just days or weeks, but months. And really, there isn't anything I can do to speed it up or get rid of it. It's so hard to think this could happen again and I really don't to have such a shitty year again.
Despite this big fear, I am moving forward with beginning my diet again on Monday. I even bought a stainless steel thermos for my soups since we don't have a microwave at school.
Here's to hoping I can get my hot body back without having another miscarriage...
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Good luck on getting back on track. I started last Monday and have done pretty well. Been hitting up the gym regularly as well. Here's to get healthy!
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