A Few Notes

I've been writing my last post on infertility for a few days now, but I just don't have it in me right now to get it all out the way I want to. So, instead I'll be hopefully sharing that with you all tomorrow.

I will say I had two ideas come to me this week infertility related, which I hope to share with you all soon, too. Maybe one of them as early as next week.

NYEBoy and I went on a date night tonight. We headed to Outback for dinner. They have some new wood-grill steaks that are really good. (I'm boycotting Longhorn's. More on that another day.) After dinner we headed over to see Fast Five. I have to say, if you can, GO SEE IT. It was amazing. Seriously. Also, stay for the ending. There is a short bit after the credits that leave you gasping and saying FAST SIX! Ha.

I was supposed to go home this weekend to see A, but I haven't talked to my mom since the middle of April and I'm not sure if she's ignoring me and if she is why. I know she's alive because I've talked to my Grandma, so I'm not really sure what gives.

I'm done with my Spring semester. Sort of. I have one make up test to take on Monday for Biology, but I'm totally looking forward to my week long break from school before summer classes start. I'm only taking three classes for this session. One of the classes is online and another one is only once a week for six weeks, so I'll still have enough time to enjoy my summer. Oh, and my other class is only four days a week. Way easier than five classes, that's for sure!

We got the word back from the place we were looking at. We've been approved! Moving date is June 1st (although we'll move that Friday). We'll sign the paperwork next week. Still trying to figure out about what all to do with the place we're at currently. They aren't budging and are making us pay the remainder of our lease. NYEBoy just got a nice raise so that will help, but he may have to ask one of his bosses for a loan so we can pay it off without having to worry. We'll see. I just know I need to get the hell out of this place. I can't stand it. :-)

Well, I hope you all are having a wonderful weekend. We sure are.

Take Care of Yourself [Giveaway #5]

This will be my final giveaway for National Infertility Week 2011. When going through infertility, it's hard to remember to take time for yourself. It's an important thing to do though. Infertility is very hard on your heart, mind, and soul. The mental and emotional struggles can be unbearable at times.

One of the things I do to take care of myself is to get my nails done. I do this at least once a month. There is just something about a little color on my nails that makes me feel more like a woman. Something else that makes me feel good is chocolate. Since I can't come do your nails and feed you chocolate, I'll send you some OPI polish and chocolate instead.

All you have to do is leave a comment telling me something you do to take care of yourself.


Extra entries:
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+ Blog about this giveaway with a link to this post.
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Enter now through May 6th, 2011. The winner will be chosen via random.org and announced on May 7th, 2011.

In case you've missed my week of National Infertility Awareness, check out these posts:
Sunday: Busting A Myth
Monday: Custom Journal [Giveaway #1]
Tuesday: Navigating The Land of IF [Giveaway #2]
Wednesday: Custom Painting [Giveaway #3]
Thursday: Taking Charge of Your Fertility [Giveaway #4]

(I have not been paid or given these items to giveaway.)

Taking Charge of Your Fertility [Giveaway #4]

The first book I ever bought in relation to my fertility was Taking Charge of Your Fertility by Toni Weschler.




This is a womans book regardless of whether or not you are trying to get pregnant or not. It's an amazing wealth of information.

In honor of National Infertility Awareness Week, I am giving away one copy of this book to a lucky person. All you have to do is leave a comment below.


Extra entries:
+ Follow me on Google Connect on the left of this page.
+ Follow me on Twitter.
+ Blog about this giveaway with a link to this post.
+ Tweet this: I just entered to win a copy of Taking Charge of Your Fertility from @InDueTime #infertility #NIAW http://in-due-time.blogspot.com

Enter now through May 5th, 2011. The winner will be chosen via random.org and announced on May 7th, 2011.

In case you've missed my week of National Infertility Awareness, check out these posts:
Sunday: Busting A Myth
Monday: Custom Journal [Giveaway #1]
Tuesday: Navigating The Land of IF [Giveaway #2]
Wednesday: Custom Painting [Giveaway #3]

(I have not been paid or given these items to giveaway.)

Custom Painting [Giveaway #3]

I love to paint.



It's very calming for me, too.



I love painting for other people, too.



And that includes YOU.

In honor of National Infertility Awareness Week, I will be doing one custom painting (size 12 in by 12 in) with your choice of theme.

All you have to do is leave me a comment telling me something you would want me to paint for you. (If you win, you can change your mind.)

Extra entries:
+ Follow me on Google Connect on the left of this page.
+ Follow me on Twitter.
+ Blog about this giveaway with a link to this post.
+ Tweet this: I just entered to win a custom painting from @InDueTime in honor of National Infertility Awareness Week! http://in-due-time.blogspot.com

Enter now through May 4th, 2011. The winner will be chosen via random.org and announced on May 7th, 2011.

In case you've missed my week of National Infertility Awareness, check out these posts:
Sunday: Busting A Myth
Monday: Custom Journal [Giveaway #1]
Tuesday: Navigating The Land of IF [Giveaway #2]

(I have not been paid or given these items to giveaway.)

Navigating The Land of IF [Giveaway #2]

Someone is who very well known among the infertility community is blogger and author Melissa Ford.

In honor of National Infertility Awareness Week, I will be giving away a copy of her book Navigating The Land of IF and a bookmark!



All you have to do is leave a comment on this post and you will be entered.

Extra entries:
+ Follow me on Google Connect on the left of this page.
+ Follow me on Twitter.
+ Blog about this giveaway with a link to this post.
+ Tweet this: I just entered to win a copy of @stirrupqueen's Navigating The Land of IF from @InDueTime for NIAW! #infertility http://tinyurl.com/3qx6223


Enter now through May 3rd, 2011. The winner will be chosen via random.org and announced on May 7th, 2011.

In case you've missed my week of National Infertility Awareness, check out these posts:
Sunday: Busting A Myth
Monday: Custom Journal [Giveaway #1]

(I have not been paid or given these items to giveaway.)

Custom Journal [Giveaway #1]

Some people prefer to type.
Some people prefer to write.
Some people find a happy medium.

Regardless of which outlet your prefer, one of the best pieces of advice I can give someone who is going through infertility, is to have a way digest the emotions they are experiencing. Infertility is a road of ups and downs. It's not healthy to keep it all in. You don't have to start a blog and open yourself up to a corner on the Internet, but please don't keep it all bottled up.

In honor of National Infertility Awareness Week, I'm giving you a chance to win a journal today. I will decorate the cover to the color/design your preference. Below is an art book I did for a friend earlier this year, but it gives you an idea of what I'm talking about.



If you would like to enter for a chance to win this journal, just leave me a comment below. Do you prefer to type, write, or both? I prefer to type.

Extra entries:
+ Follow me on Google Connect on the left of this page.
+ Follow me on Twitter.
+ Blog about this giveaway with a link to this post.
+ Tweet this: I just entered for a chance to win a custom journal from @InDueTime for National Infertility Awareness Week! http://tinyurl.com/43ptvlp

Enter now through May 2nd, 2011. The winner will be chosen via random.org and announced on May 7th, 2011.

Sunday: Busting A Myth

Congrats to Kristin for winning Two Kisses for Maddy. Email me your address!

Busting an Infertility Myth

Untitled from InDueTime on Vimeo.

Today is the first day of National Infertility Awareness Week 2011. This year, Resolve has given us the challenge of busting an infertility myth.

I chose to bust the "You waited too long to have kids." myth. I was 20 years old when I began TTC. I now 27 and still childless.

Infertility can happen to anyone at any childbearing age.

I have nothing to be ashamed of and neither do you. Let's break the silence and bust the myths about infertility.

http://www.resolve.org/infertility101

http://www.resolve.org/takecharge



Starting this Monday, I will have an infertility related giveaway every day through Friday. Check back for your chance to win a few goodies.

Difference of a Year

What a difference a year makes.

This year, I only had one Easter basket to get goodies for.

This year, I have a church to attend.

This year, I have exams to study for.

I picked up the stuff for NYEBoy's Easter basket. Blue peeps. Ghiradelli Espresso Escape bar. Reese's Peanut Butter Bunny. Gingerbread cookies. All inside the little basket I bought him on our first Easter together.

I'll be going to church tomorrow morning. It's going to be hard without A there to hunt Easter eggs with the rest of the kids.

When I get back home I have to finish studying for my exams. Five days. Four exams. I can't wait until it's over.

I hope you all have a wonderful Easter. Tomorrow kicks off National Infertility Awareness Week. I hope you'll join me for a week of sharing and I might even have 5 days a few giveaways!

Not Tonight!

My brain is mush.

Today was the last day of official classes.

Next week is finals.

I'll start prepping tomorrow.

I went to dinner with NYEBoy and my friend tonight for her birthday dinner.

I had a therapy appointment today and she finally made me cry.

More on the details of the appointment later.

It was the first time I have really cried since A left.

It wasn't a big cry, though.

I'm trying to keep that burried.

Tomorrow we're going to start the paperwork to moving into a new place June 1st.

I'm exhausted.

I'm going to bed now.

Goodnight.

Hourglass

I've never actually owned an hourglass before, but when I came across one on clearance at Kirkland's last weekend I had to have it. It's so simply, yet so symbolic.



Waiting. Time. Grains of sand (or life). Slow. Delicate.

A few words that this hourglass shares with life and infertility.

The Score: Grill-2 Me-0

Spring in FIorida is an amazing time of year. Things are blooming, fresh fruits and vegetables are hitting the store stands, the air is heating up. This past weekend, I noticed the grocery store had fresh corn on sale. Fresh roasted corn on the cob is simply delicious. We don't have a grill because we have a small deck and live in a townhouse. (Another reason I can't wait to move!) While I was shopping though, I passed a tabletop grill that was on clearance for five bucks! I threw it in the cart along with a bag of charcoal and a box of matches. Rednecking it out, y'all!

When I got home, I placed the bottom of the grill on our deck and lined it with foil. After the flames died down, I put the rack over top of it and waited a few minutes before getting the corn ready.

Up until that point, I had been sitting next to the back door to keep an eye out on the flames. Flames plus wooden deck, it's just a recipe for a disaster. Well, after putting the rack over it, I decided to sit on the couch for a few minutes until the coals turned white. Well, actually, I didn't just put a rack over it, I also put cardboard under it hoping it would, oh I don't know, act as a buffer for the heat under the pan.

I'll just stop this story right now and tell you that I am a dumbass. If NYEBoy had been paying me attention, he would have stopped me long ago. Alas, he was busy working and I wanted me some roasted-over-the-grill corn, damn it. Now, back to the story.

As I am sitting on the couch, I notice it start to smoke quite a bit. I headed outside to check on the coals and see what was going on with the smoke. Ahem. Uh. Apparently, I'm a dumbass. (I already mentioned that.) The cardboard was in near flames and had burnt clear down to the wooden deck. AWESOMESAUCE!



After pouring a gallon of water on the box, the deck, and into the grill I decided to stop there. I'd come close enough to burning down our townhouse.

Current Score: Grill-1 Me-0

Yesterday, on my day off, I started craving roasted-over-the-grill corn again. So, I grabbed the grill, relined it with foil again, and my gallon of water. I was going to make me some grilled corn, damn it.

After Sunday's incident, I realized there was a clip on the rack to hold the bottom pan up off of the ground in order to prevent the deck and townhouse from burning down an accident. This time, I used it.

I decided to grill some chicken for dinner and after that was done, I didn't think the fire was hot enough to heat the corn before NYEBoy got home so I decided to let the coals burn out.

After dinner, before I came upstairs to study, I went outside to check on the grill and the coals were still hot. I decided (Again, I'm a dumbass.) to pour some water on the coals to put them out, afterall, I did that yesterday! Except this time, I was leaning over the coals and inhaled a massive amount of coal "dust" that puffed up. I didn't choke or anything, but after about 20 minutes or so, my head started hurting really bad. It was around eight so I just went to bed. I woke up at 5 and 6 with a full blown migraine. I downed some Advil and I was still in lots of pain at 7 so I took some pain meds and went to bed.

New Score: Grill-2 Me-0

I'm hoping I'll be able to make up my Bio test that I missed, but I was so fucking sick there was no way I was going to be able to make it. Luckily, the pain meds kicked the headache and I was able to make my afternoon classes.

I think I'm going to leave the grill alone for awhile.

The grill's done got me.

A Meeting & Mushroom Soup

What does a meeting and mushroom soup have in common? Nothing. Other than me.

I had my meeting this morning with the lady who is over recl@ssification for my tuition. This lady and I haven't had the best relationship. She's rude on the phone and acts like she's THE. END. ALL. TO. BE. ALL! Anyways, I have a list of documents to get together for her, you know, because I moved here only to go to school, even though there was two years in between moving down here and starting school. WHATEVER. Fingers crossed the board approves my documents.

I was craving mushroom soup this morning, so after my meeting I ran by the store to pick up some groceries. This is the recipe I used. It was SO good. I had two bowls. I left the veggies in mine to give me something to eat. I'm going to freeze the leftovers to have later.

We're still hammering out the details to see if we are going to move in a month and a half. One of the downsides to moving is that I won't be able to go home at the end of the month to see A. I'm not sure how I feel about that.

Tomorrow is my last test for the semester. Next week I have four finals. Hold me.

I forgot to announce the winner of the Katy Perry polish, but random.org gave me the number #7! Congrats to Nikke! Email me your addy.

Well, I better get to studying. I hope you have a wonderful day!

Finding A New Place

If you've been reading this blog for a few years, you know I always get the itch to move around this time of year. We haven't gone all balls to the wall this year because when you're depressed the last thing you want to do is look for a place to move because then you think about everything that goes into moving.

A few weeks ago, I went to look at a townhouse. It was beautiful. I fell in love. I sat in the driveway and sent the owner a text telling her we were interested and when could we sign the lease. She wrote back she would be in town the next day and would call me. (The guy who showed us the place was her friend.) Well, Saturday and Sunday go by without a word from her and then Monday morning I get a text saying she signed the lease with someone else. WTF? I was so sad! And mad!

After that snatchtastic experience, I stopped looking again. But, today, in between classes I pulled out my iPad and started looking at listings again. I saw a place, not too far from where we are now, within our price range, and made the call. He called me back and we set up an appointment to come look at it this evening.

Oh boy. We're in love. And by we, I totally mean me. But we have to think about it over night before making the decision. And by we, I totally mean him.

I really hope we he decides we can do the damn thing. I'm going to be really bummed if we he says no.

I Don't Write My Blog For My Family

For the record, I started writing this blog about six years ago. I started this blog because of me, not my family, and believe it or not, not even for you, dear readers.

Apparently someone got their feelings hurt about this ironic post. My brother called me to tell me I was an asshole for writing it because people KNEW who I was writing about.

Really? I don't think so.

The only person who knows who we lent money to is NYEBoy. I specifically wrote it without saying who because I know half of my extended family reads this blog and I didn't want that person to feel like shit for needing money. I didn't say why they needed the money or even my thoughts on the situation. My only point with the blog post was that people always talk shit about me, but when someone needs me, they know they can't ask other people in the family for help but they can ask me.

So for the record, if you are my family and you make the decision to read my blog, you are reading it because you are a nosey asshole and you really can't get enough of me. I'm glad to know that even though I am not a part of your life any more, you still feel the need to spy and see what I'm doing with my life.

If you want to play passive aggressive, I'll play too.

Now go back and talk to each other about this post.

To my friends and readers, excuse my rant but I'm so sick of people getting their knickers in a knot over something they read here, despite the fact I never invited them to read here in the first place. Dumbasses.

Week Before Finals #CollegeLife

Over the next two weeks, my life will be consumed by the hashtag #collegelife and the week after I will add #finalsweek for a little extra flavor.

This next week I have my my two papers due and a test to do. The following week I have my four finals.

After my last final is done, I will be climbing into my car and heading north to go see A. So excited! I'm not sure how long I will be staying in TN since it's my only week in between classes, but I have some fun planned for the baby and I.

This afternoon NYEBoy and I will be watching our first game without the baby. F$U is playing their spring Garnet and Gold game. I guess we'll head out here shortly to get some game day food. I'm thinking sliders, wings, and chip and dip. Feel free to come over! Tomorrow after church I have a birthday party to attend.

I hope you all have a great weekend.

Don't forget to enter for your chance to win a copy of Two Kisses For Maddy and some pretty Katy Perry nail polish!

The Baby

"The baby is with my mom."

"I think about the baby a lot."

"I took down the baby's bed this weekend."

Those are just a few things I said during the session with my therapist. About half way through our appointment, she adjusted her glasses and hair before starting a new subject.

"I don't want to tell you what to say or get upset with me," she said. "I have two grandbabies, two and five. Sometimes I refer to them as "my baby","

At that moment, I knew where this conversation was going.

She proceeded to share that sometimes we say "the baby" as if we are hanging on to that feeling of them being little and us wanting to protect them. She said they aren't babies at this age any more, four, nearly five. The are little boys and girls, children, growing up.

As she talked, my thumbs were rubbing together and I had to remind myself to breathe. I don't know why I refer to her as "the baby". I don't know if it's because I'm protecting her or if it's because I've always called her that. I don't feel like I'm hanging on to that to protect myself, it's just something I've always said when discussing her.

"I talked to the baby today."

"The baby is at grandma's today."

Later on during our conversation, I caught myself about to call her "the baby" and I felt ashamed. I changed it to her name. I felt like the therapist scored a point or something. Therapist - 1 Me - 0.

She's always going to be "the baby" to me. She'll be 15, and still "the baby".

Hell, I even called my grandma the other day and she said "Our baby is right here. Do you want to talk to her?"

I don't know want to feel ashamed for calling her "the baby". I don't feel like I am harboring those feelings of her still being here or something, but it's just what I say.

So A, you'll always be "the baby". I hope you don't mind.

Hitting Harder Than I Thought

Well, I'm a little bummed. I didn't think the custody case was going to hit my grades as hard as I thought, but apparently it has.

I sat down with my English professor yesterday for a moment to discuss where I was and what I would need on the final few grades we have left. It looks like I'm going to get a B in the class overall. As someone who was the top of her class last semester, this really stings.

I bombed two of my tests in History during and after the court hearing, and it's really pulled me down. I thought I did pretty well on this last test on Monday, but apparently I only made a B. Ugh. If I get an A on my final I'll get a B overall. I'm hoping I can do it, but I'm not sure if it's possible considering I have four finals that week. We'll see.

In Biology I need to get an A on my last two tests to get an A, or I'll be stuck with a B overall.

In my P0sitive Living class, I have an A, so no real worries there.

I know I've been through a lot, but damn I was really hoping it wasn't to wreck my GPA too much. Sigh. On the bright side, a new semester states in three weeks and I know it'll be less stressful than this last semester.

Don't forget to enter for your chance to win a copy of Two Kisses For Maddy and some pretty Katy Perry nail polish!

Two Kisses For Maddy {Giveaway}

I'm sure most of you are familiar with Matt Logelin and his story.

His book comes out tomorrow. Two Kisses For Maddy.

I'm feeling generous. And too tired to write a blog post. So, I'm going to give you a chance to win a copy of his book.

All you have to do is comment on this post telling me you want it.

Extra entries:
+ Follow me on Google Connect on the left of this page.
+ Follow me on Twitter.
+ Blog about this giveaway with a link to this post.
+ Tweet this: I just entered to win a copy of @mattlogelin's book Two Kisses For Maddy at @InDueTime's blog! Have you? http://tinyurl.com/3rjng3n

And for every $1 you donate to The Liz Logelin Foundation I will give you another entry. ($10 = 10 entries)

You don't have to leave separate comments for each one on this drawing because of the donations. Instead just tell me what all you did. I'll be going by the honor system for the donations, so lets be adults.

This contest closes on April 24th. I will announce the winner on the 25th.

[I'm not getting paid for this post. I just love Matt's blog. We've had some good news around this house this week and I feel like spreading the love.]

Don't forget, you can still enter to win some cute nail polish!

Other Things I'd Rather Do

I have a ton of other things I'd rather be doing today. Like...

Cleaning out my fridge.
Or
Painting for a fellow blogger.
Or
Prepping for my Bio test next week.
Or
Prepping for my finals the week after.
Or
Watching TV.
Or
Working on my other painting projects.

But, I can't. Instead, I'm stuck attacking a ten paragraph essay and a ten page paper.

Neither are due until next Monday, you see, but apparently both professors want to proof them by tomorrow and I just found out yesterday.

Bummer, dudes.

If you need me, I'll be in my office, screaming about STDs and college tuition, because those are the topics of my writing assignments.

The only bright side, is the bling on my fingers as I type these papers. Don't forget to enter for your chance to have kick ass fingernails, too!

Katy Perry OPI

I finally got my hands on a bottle of Katy Perry's OPI Teenage Dream! Isn't this the cutest color ever? NYEBoy told me I was acting 15 for getting glitter polish. I was like, um, IT'S KATY PERRY! Duh.



Do you like it a lot?

Do you want your own bottle?

Well, here's your chance to win!

All you have to do is leave a comment below telling me your favorite OPI color or how bad you want this color.

Extra entries:
+ Follow me on Google Connect on the left of this page.
+ Follor me on Twitter.
+ Blog about this giveaway with a link to this post.
+ Tweet this: I just entered to win a bottle of Katy Perry's OPI nail polish in Teenage Dream at @InDueTime's blog! Have you? http://tinyurl.com/3rjng3n

To get the extra entries you must post one additional comment under this post for each thing you did. If you do all five things, that will be five comments, not one comment telling me you did all five things.

The winner will be picked via random.org and announced on April 18th. The winner will have 48 hours to respond to the email (please make sure there is a way for me to contact you from your name.) or someone else will get picked.

Good Luck!

[This is not a paid review. I'm just in love with this color so much I want to give you one, too.]

Small, Hard Steps

A part of grief is where you reorganize into your "new" life. Slowly, over the past eight weeks, I've made some adjustments.

I don't wake up early enough to give her a bath and get her ready.
I don't turn left at the light to drop her off off at school.
I don't pick her up after I get out of class.
I don't have a car seat in my backseat. It's in the trunk.
I don't order her a meal at the restaurant.
I don't turn the lights off to rock her to sleep.
And now...I don't have a bed to put her inside of once she's asleep.

Yesterday, I spent several hours cleaning our bedroom and taking down A's bed. I wasn't sure if I wanted to do it, but I told myself if it was too emotional once it was said and done, I could always put it back together.

I washed the walls with soap and water. I washed her bed with soap and water. I repositioned our bed some. I piled a tub full of the dirty clean? laundry together. I washed our sheets. I wiped down the TV with a really wet rag and electrocuted myself. My thumb still hurts and has a mark. I also rearranged some mirrors I had stored in the corner of the room. We're not allowed to hang things on the walls, so I just have them propped up.

I now have a pile of dirty (clean?) laundry to wash and put away, as well as a pile of toys to put into a bin. Then it will be completely done.

I was a little shocked at my reaction once it was done. I thought I would have a gut-wrenching moment, my chest was tight just thinking about everything, but I actually had the sense of a heavy weight lifted off of me. The room suddenly felt lighter, but not in a "in your face, the baby is gone" type of way.

I didn't sleep the whole night though and I did wake up a lot, but I think with a little bit more time, I will adjust.

If she comes back tomorrow, I wouldn't hesitate to pull that bed right back out!

I miss her like you wouldn't believe, and I still can't wrap my head around her never living with us again, but I'm making small, hard, but necessary changes.

Just A Random List of Thoughts

{.} I went out last night with some girlfriends to see Black Swan. It was over faster than I thought it would be, but the movie itself was not like I expected. Natalie Portman was amazing.

{.} After going to see the movie with some girlfriends and talking two hours outside of the theatre I was starving, but when I came home I went to bed instead of going out to eat to keep my sleep schedule a little bit normal. It worked. For now.

{.} I took care of one extra credit project and one essay yesterday and I have one of the tests on Monday. Slowly but surely I'll get it all done.

{.} NYEBoy and I are going out to dinner and a movie tonight. With my sleep schedule messed up and him working a lot, we haven't had dinner together in a week.

{.} I need to clean my kitchen and bedroom this weekend. Who wants to help?

{.} Speaking of cleaning the bedroom, I'm planning on taking A's bed down finally. I think. My chest tightened up when I wrote that.

{.} She's been gone for 8 weeks today.

{.} I have a couple of ideas for Infertility Awareness Week. I hope they get to come to fruition.

{.} I'm excited about watching The Judds tomorrow night. Anyone else?

{.} It's going to be in the 90s all weekend. It won't be long before my love affair with Florida weather fades away until the Fall.

Well, I think that's all the random things I'm thinking about right now. I need to start studying for this History test, writing this paper, and cleaning. And watching Breaking Down The Bars.

Final Two Weeks

I'm heading into the final two weeks of my Spring semester. I still have a lot to do. I have three tests, three essays, a 10 page paper, three finals, and two extra credit projects still left to mark off my to-do list.

This has been my hardest semester yet emotionally. I'm fairly certain my GPA will take a hit, but I won't be bringing home less than a B. I didn't make A's and B's like this in high school, so I shouldn't beat myself up over it too much. But, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't upset a little bit.

On the bright side, summer classes start soon which means a fresh new start.

Two Packages

When A left, I had planned on mailing her small packages fairly frequently, but for whatever reason, I haven't done it that much. I've only mailed her two packages so far, but I think I'll start making a better effort at getting her out something more often.

The first package I mailed her was just a few things I had found when I was packing up her toy area that I thought she might want. Then last week I saw a deal for a Tangeled blanket online that could be monogrammed and shipped for like $10. I ordered her one and told my Mom to call me when she got the package so I could hear her opening it.

Of course they got it yesterday afternoon when I was asleep trying to get my nights and days back together so I was half asleep when they called, but I heard her sweet voice tell me "Thank you SO much!" when she opened it. Ahh. I needed that.

I've already bought the things for two more packages. One is a dinosaur that she can paint and the other is her Easter package. I miss her so much.

Summer and Fall Classes

We were able to start registering for our summer and fall classes last week. It's one of my favorite parts of school since I enjoy planning things so much. I was hoping to get something like this semester, MWF with TT off, but the summer classes tend to go more often. This summer I'll be taking three classes, one of which that will be online and another one that is only one day a week for half the summer. My math class will be MTWT. I'll still have a little break with a three day weekend which will be nice. I was thinking about taking one more class, but I haven't decided just yet.

My fall schedule is even worse though. I will have classes every day. I'll be taking four classes. I wanted to take five again, but since two are math classes and one is a foreign language, I know this will have more than enough on my plate. I made sure not to get early morning classes since I struggle so much with my sleep schedule. I'll have classes for four hours on MWF and only two hours on TT.

We're a one car family and although it hasn't been too much of a hassle this past semester, I really hate the idea of the back and forthing over the next year, but then again I remember we'll be at the same school in a year and it won't matter as much.

I'm almost done with my first year in college. How crazy is that?

The Irony Abounds

I'm lazy.
I don't work.
I'm entitled.
I'm selfish.
I'm a bitch.
I have a huge ego.
I can't do anything right.
I'm spoiled.
I'm rude.
I cuss too much.
I don't care about anyone else.

But when they need help, who do they call?

Exactly.

One of these days, I'm going to start being like everyone else in the family and stop helping people. Actually, I wish I was like that, but that's not a part of who I am. I really care about people even when they don't give two shits about me.

One day I'll live up to everything they say I am.

The DigiTour 2011

Have you all heard of The DigiTour? Well, if you haven't, YouTube is presenting The DigiTour 2011. They are bringing YouTubers to a town near you (and me!)

I have to admit, before Maria posted her video announcement, I hadn't heard about this tour. However, I am totally stoked about going. I'll be at the May 14th show in 0rlando. If you're going to be there and want to meet up, feel free to email me.

I know it may sound weird to some people, but maybe not to you since you read blogs, but I can hardly wait to meet Maria in person. We've been in contact for over three or four years now. Whenever people talk about YouTube and music, I'm always quick to introduce them to Maria. Her voice is simply amazing. It doesn't hurt that she's absolutely adorable.

Check out the website and see if the tour is coming close to you! The tickets are so affordable. If you live near 0rlando and plan on going, seriously drop me a line. I'd love to meet you!

Just What The Dr. Ordered

I'm really enjoying painting again. I finished the painting for Kristi's daughter. I hope she likes it.



Since I took this picture I added a few tiny other details, but I'm going to keep those a surprise for them to see when it gets delivered.

I have a couple other paintings lined up to do over the next few weeks, but after that I might be taking orders.

I really enjoy doing them and I don't think I'm half bad. Ha.

Good Weekend

As I type this post, I'm sitting at my desk and eating the first slice of my three layer chocolate cake NYEBoy bought me. Yes, three days after my birthday. Shhh...

After being up for over 24 hours on Wednesday, I crashed all day Thursday, which of course led me to being up over 30 hours between Thursday evening and Saturday morning.

My birthday party with the girls was last night. We had so much fun. We decided to hit up Chilis for two-for-one and dinner, then we went bowling where we played with balls while we drank booze. How much more fun could that night have been? Not much. I ended up waking up on my living room floor around 4 am. A true sign of a good night. I think.


Today I slept off and on all day. No hangover, just tired. Tomorrow I'm hoping to make it to church for the first time in three weeks. I also need to study for my Biology test that is on Monday.

What are you all doing this weekend?

Girls Night Out

Food. Bowling. Booze. My girls.

Need I say more?