Actually, that should say, I am afraid to have another miscarriage.
Before my miscarriage, I didn't and to an extent, still don't, have any reservations about being pregnant and going to school. Obviously if health complications arise, that's a whole 'nother issue.
But, I am afraid to have another miscarriage while I'm in school.
Having to take off from school like this again will likely send me over the edge. Since we don't know what caused the miscarriage, there is even a bigger question mark standing on my shoulders.
Was it from the chromosome disorder I have?
Was it because I have something we don't know about?
Was it just 'nature'?
I'll likely never know, unless I have another one and we're able to do testing.
And that, is my biggest fear.