This semester I obviously had more bumps in the road than I had last semester. Although things were emotionally challenging last semester, this semester brought on new challenges of its own, specifically, a final decision in the custody case. I knew it was going to come at a cost of my grades for sure. I struggled with the balance of spending as much time with A as I could, while not demolishing my grades too much in the process. It's a fine line, that GPA thing.
With only five more weeks left in this semester, and only four more classes to take finals for, the rush is on. It's the time of semester were students decide if a D or a withdrawal is going to hurt worse. In the end, we each have to wrestle with the decisions we made. Were all the parties worth it? Or in my case, missing several crucial classes in order to soak up those last few memories?
Personally, I can say yes. I'm not going to make straight A's this semester, or even all A's and a B like I did last semester. Having said that, I'm not too far off. I'm pretty sure I will be making three A's and two B's. And honestly? I didn't do that good in high school, much less in college during such a life changing time. So, I'll take it.
I have nothing to be ashamed of. If anything, I wish I could have spent more time with A, but then again, there is never enough time to fill the void she has left. Instead, I press on, I study hard, I try my best not to procrastinate, and do the best I can under the circumstances.