In some ways, it feels like it has been an eternity since I last kissed her sweet face goodbye. Other times, it feels like it was just yesterday. If I weren't in the midst of school, I think I would for sure be in the fetal position still. It's a blessing in disguise I guess. On top of that, my brother has been here this week. It's hard to be emotional with your younger brother around. After all, they are the biggest pests ever. Don't tell him, but I love that he's here.
I am sure I am in denial still, though. I can feel it. It's a tall, strong wall I've built. It's my protection. With four tests on the agenda for the next week, and another busy week after that, I have a feeling this wall will come crashing down during the week of Spring Break. NYEBoy is going to be out of town at a conference, which means I will be home alone with just my thoughts. I have a girlfriend who has offered to stay a few nights since my main squeeze will be out of town that week, too. I'm afraid about whats to come.
I miss her so much.
3 comments:
Thinking of you and praying hard.
I would take the girlfriend up on her offer and NOT be alone when you have nothing to distract you.
I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. I wish I had magic words but all I know to say is that you will get through this because you are not going through it by yourself.
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