Tonight is the night that we are laying everything on the line. She's either going to go all in and give us a run for our money or fold 'em. It's so tough. As a sister, I have a natural instinct to protect my sister.
This isn't easy for me to do. It's not easy for me to say "Hey! You suck as a parent! Let me have your kid." At the end of the night though, it's not about who has more money in the bank right now to support A, but really it's about who can make clear-headed, adult decisions that directly affect the way this child is living.
It kills me to look at all of the evidence we have. It kills me to know that this kid is going to know one day that her parents suck. I mean really, how would you feel if you found out one day that your parents were both in jail before? How would you feel if your parents chose drugs over you? It fucking sucks. I just pray to God that whatever happens, however long A stays with us, that she knows our love outweighs any wrong doing that her parents ever did. I pray she knows NYEBoy have tried our best to give her the life her parents aren't capable of, not because we can, but because she deserves it.
I know this is the right thing to do. I know this. But, it's not easy. At all. It's one of the hardest things I've had to do (and I've been through a lot), but it's the right thing. It's the only thing. Things aren't going to get better as they are, something has to change and since she's not, we're going to have to.
Keep us in your thoughts and prayers this afternoon and tomorrow.
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Saying many prayers that this turns out to be a surprisingly trouble free encounter. You are a good person. You are a good sister. And, you have a damned BIG heart!
I can fully and completely understand everything you said in this post. Completely. I know those mixed emotions and feelings all too well. Too well.
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