College

I spent the majority of my time in high school working and dealing with family drama to really pay attention to my grades in school. Some things I did great in, like Child Development, other things I didn't care about, like English. Believe it or not, I never turned in a term paper my entire time of high school. My mom was too busy gambling at the casinos to help us study at home. We didn't have a computer back then either.

Growing up, I often thought I would be a teacher. I love working with children. I decided not to go down that path because I thought the pay and stress wouldn't be worth it. Plus, I never even considered going to college because my parents never talked about helping us pay for it. I just assumed we would graduate high school and just go to work somewhere. It didn't help that when I was a freshmen in high school, the guidance counselor told me since I didn't start on the University path, I would never be able to go to college.

Sometimes I feel like NYEBoy wishes I would have more ambition for a higher education. Not because he thinks I'm stupid, but because he knows I can do it. I haven't really thought about going back to school until I started registering K for classes, buying her books, and helping her with her homework each night. I realize, maybe I can do it. Maybe I'm smarter than I give myself credit for.

The only downside to having these thoughts in my head, is knowing I can't go to school right now. I can't go because we're down to one car, we already have two of three of us going to school full-time, and someone also has to watch A. Maybe I'll try to get in next fall when A starts preschool or maybe I'll just wait until NYEBoy graduates, but maybe by then I'll be a Mom. If I'm a Mom, I'll be too busy to go until the kids get into school. Who knows what the future holds. I know I want to be a Mom above all else, but maybe I'll have the chance to go to college one day.