Today marks five years of my infertility journey. I wish I didn't feel so angry about it, but I do. Despite being excited to be with my family over the next few days, I'll be internally dealing with the emotions of another family get together without a little one in tow.
I want my baby being transferred from relative to relative. I want my child on my hip, in the swimming pool. I want a family picture with NYEBoy, myself, and our child. I want to be a mommy. I know things happen for a reason, but I feel like I've waited enough.
Five years is plenty. It's more than enough.
7 comments:
Hugs you tight.
I don't think there is a reason and you really have waited long enough. I'm so sorry you don't have what you deserve.
Another vote for screw-things-happen-for-a-reason. There is no good reason you shouldn't have all those things.
It IS enough.
And it sucks that enough is not enough.
Hugs,
-D.
I am sorry. Enough is enough. I hope good things come soon!
Oh family events are tough.
I'm sorry its been so long for you. I'm only two years in and it seems unbearable. Hang in there. Your day is coming.
HUGS!!!
It sucks. It's hard. I hope you don't have to wait much longer.
I've been in your shoes. And though I didn't have to wait as long, I can tell you that when you do become a mommy (and you WILL), your child will have an incredible parent because of how much you had to struggle to get there.
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