Tuesday, May 5

An Offer

I was talking to my mom on the phone. She was telling me about my uncle from 0lrando visiting over the weekend. She said he made an offer to my mom, that if K left Thugboy, they (K and A) could move down there with him.

This uncle is very well off. He's helped my brother out several times. Even when my brother packs up and leaves again. They have two boys, a teenager and early 20-something-er. My aunt works a few days a week as a babysitter, but otherwise stays at home. They have the money and the means. I think it would be a wonderful thing for K.

Did you notice I said K and not them? Yeah, I'm an asshole like that. I don't want A going down there. I'm not even talking about my biggest fear of her drowning in their unfenced pool. They have always wanted a daughter, but didn't want to keep trying and end up with a bunch of boys. I wonder partly if they would have K live there to gain some leverage to try to take A away from her saying she's an unfit mother. Then, they could have the daughter they always dreamed of.

If A goes any where, I selfishly want her coming here. I've fought too long, spent too much, and cried too often to have her living with someone other than me if she's not with her parents. Am I so horrible for having these feelings?

There is nothing even really being discussed at this point. It's all just an unlikely option. My sister is wrapped so tightly around Thugboy she can't even shit for herself, much less make a responsible decision about her future. So, I don't know why I am so worked up about it, but I a bit annoyed at the possibility option.

2 comments:

Beautiful Mess said...

I don't think there's anything wrong with feeling the way you do. Like you said, you've put in A LOT of time, tears and most importantly yourself into caring for A. You love her and you can do better then K is. Anyone can see that.

Michelle said...

I know exactly what you are talking about and I do not blame you at all. We had almost the same situation with my niece. She is now 18 so it doesn't matter but there were many times I wanted so badly to get custody of her. Both of her parents are whacked. Unbelievably she turned out very well adjusted and with a good head on her shoulders. I hope things work out for you. A deserves a good loving home and I think you would definitely provide that for her.