I was checking out Girl's Gone Child's latest post about her Momversation video which was about judging (or not) young mothers.
I always said I wasn't going to be an old* mom like my mother. After all, she turned 25 two weeks after having her first child. Jesus, that's OLD! I wanted to be almost, if not completely, done having all four-to-six of my liter by the time I turned 25.
Then, I started trying. And trying. And trying. And trying. Reality soon hit me that I was infertile. Fast forward almost five years later, I am twenty-five years old and still childless. Unless some grand miracle happens, we won't be able to afford treatments until after he graduates grad school in about five years. By then, I'll be thirty years old. Holy shit.
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While leaving a comment on Rebecca's blog, word verification decided to play wheel of fortune with me again. Except this time, the puzzle has been solved for me.
Yes, I am aching. Sometimes it's a sharp pain, other times it's more like a dull ache or throb. One way or another though, I'll make it to the finish line. I may be older than I had planned, but damn it, I'll get there. Even if I'm so old I have to change my diaper after I change my child's. I'll get there.
*I ♥ old moms. Don't take offense. I just wanted to be a young
7 comments:
I wanted to be a young mum, my mum was 21 with 3 kids under 3 and although I didn't want to be that young, I would have liked to have been done by the time I was 25. I'm 28 now and actually, in some ways I'm glad we didn't becsaue although I desperatly want a child, we wouldn't have had the experiences we have if we had a family young.
30's not that old to have kids
Me too! I remember my mom always saying "you have such a young mom" She was 31 and I was 10. Now I am 35 and still none. Depressing!
Oh for Christs sake! "Aching!"
AWESOME!
Totally hear ya!
And I have to book my flight, yo!
Life definitely changes. It's even harder when all your friends are 25 and have had all the children they want to have and you are just beginning.
The best laid plans .. uuugh I'm 27this year I toally hear ya .. it aches eveyday.
I always wanted to be a young mother..heck my Grandmother was 14 my mom was 14...I wanted to be 18. I was married at 17...and started trying right away...eight years later we divorced because he wanted bio children and as much as we tried, and the infertility treatments and everything else..it never happend. I remarried two years later..and four days after our second wedding anniversary I found out I was pregnant...NUTS I TELL YA!! :) Now i'm 29...and have an eight week old baby girl. God's blessing to me. So..I guess I was meant to be an older momma. But I wouldn't trader her for anything
I hear ya! Although...I wanted to have my first child at age 27 (got married at 25), and now I am 31!!
ICLW
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