Today is the first day of IComLeavWe for January 2009. If you're just joining me, welcome to my corner of the internet. Take a look around. Me casa, Su casa. Enjoy!
I still communicate to M at least once a week or so, usually through text, but occasionally through the phone. I have often wondered how he was able to move on so easily. I have wondered if he regretted the things he did or didn't do to me and our relationship. From outward appearances, he moved on without looking back. I guess that shouldn't surprise me, after all he was talking to her before we split. He would probably deny it, but the proof is in the phone records and lack of emotion those last few weeks and months.
I am happy with where life has taken me. I don't have any regrets. I did what I could do to make our relationship work, there was nothing I could have done more. I love NYEBoy and am quite comfortable with our relationship, but I still wondered if M was sorry or had regrets.
M and I were talking a week or two ago, one way or another, we ended up on the topic of my blog. He said he wanted the link, so I emailed him the link. Out of the blue today, I got a text that said:
Hey I just got done reading pretty much all your blog and I just wanted to say Im sorry for all I put you through. I know its a little late to say that but hey better lat than never
Better late than never, indeed. I forgive him, but I haven't forgotten. Those last few months were brutal. Emotionally, it sucked ass. I'm at a happier place now. The pain is now like a scar. It no longer hurts, but there is a mark and if you touch it, it has no feelings. I'm not sure if he will continue to read my blog, either way is fine with me. I'm just glad to see those two words, I'm sorry.