I'm in a funk. I told NYEBoy I didn't want him coming up for the weekend. He took it personally, which hurt his feelings. It's not him. I just don't want to do any thing this weekend, with any one.
I am coming to the end of some work drama. July 1st will mark my 4yr mark of TTC. Thugboy is acting like an asshole right now by keeping A from me. He's not taking care of her, he just doesn't want *me* to have her. I'm dealing with family drama from my mom, dad, brother, sister, and aunt. All have their own seperate issues. I am worried about the finances it's going to take for me to make the move in a few months.
I just want to get off work tomorrow night knowing I don't have any obligations until Monday morning at 7am at which point I have to return to work. If I want to sit in the apartment wearing the same clothes for two days without taking a shower, only leaving the house to get something to eat at a drive-thru, sleeping as long as I want, or laughing and crying as loud as I need to, then noone can say a thing about it.
I just wish he wouldn't take it personally because I really feel guilty. I just really need to be alone for a few days.
3 comments:
I hope he understands and doesn't take it so personally. Explain it again and describe what is going thru your head and not just that you need time. Give him the why and the whole story and hopefully he will better understand. Just my assvice, take it or leave it. No worries. nclm
I'm sorry you're having a tough time. Sending lots of hugs your way.
Hopefully he'll get it... I so undertsand the need of being alone- I begged my friends husband to suggest fishing to my hubby. And tonight I'll get a few hours of being solo- which I need.
Take a breather, I hope it leaves you calm, collected, and refreshed!
Mel via NCLMo
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