So...How Would You Do It?

How would you hide the anniversary present you got your spouse for three days from now to give him, if he is threatening to go get it himself and it's causing major fights? I'm laughing my ass off right now because I bought him a new cell phone (and me, too!) but he keeps saying he's going to get one tomorrow if I don't get it myself. I want to tell him I ordered them online but then that's no fun. I'd rather him think I haven't done it until dinner time Monday night (how fucking long does that sound?) when I hand him his present and inside is his new phone.

This could be a very, very long weekend. I am trying to make plans to go away for the weekend at friends/family so I don't have to hear it..but I really want a relaxing weekend since I was out of town last weekend.

Hmmmm....

Oh, my progesterone was 0.6. Thanks for asking.

Fastest Week EVER

Okay, this week was the fastest week ever. Tomorrow can't possibly be Friday.

According to my lab results I haven't ovulated this month, infect I'm "post menopausal". Greeeeaaaattt! :-)

I my body.

Another Trip

Alright, it looks like we will be going back to H0t Springs in 3 weeks for a 5 night trip. I am so excited!! We will be better planned this next time. :-)

I had my blood draw today at work and the lady nearly killed my arm. It stung SO bad!! Needless to say..I will try to aviod her doing my blood any more.

Exhausted

I am so exhausted from our trip..yet it's nearly 12am and I am still up. I can't even think about anything I'm so tired!

I get my blood draw tomorrow for the day 21..Im also supose to start the Pr0vera today..but I didn't..I can't make up my mind and it depends on when we decide to go back out of town. Hmpf.

Was That Really Only One Day?

I'm back home from our whirl-wind trip. It was nothing like we expected, pretty shitty over all, but we don't regret going. It rained a lot and then we were supose to meet up with some friends she knew but that didn't go over to well either. I really wish I could call in to work tomorrow though, I'm pretty exhausted. We are planning on making a trip in a few weeks, hopefully the next one will turn out better than this one though!

Here's a good picture of us. This was us before going out and meeting up with some of her friends, who'da thunk the night was going to be so shitty when ya look so happy? ...maybe next time.

Fun In The Sun

We leave for the waterpark Saturday morning. I am staying at K's house tomorrow night so I won't be back until Sunday night. I hope you all have a wonderful Friday and better yet, a wonderful WEEKEND!!

I will be back with pics! :-)

Daughter Like Father

My sister is slowly turning in to my dad. She claims she doesn't like him, but she's fooling herself. As you all know by now, she's poor as shit and never gets any thing new. Last night at T@rget where I was looking for something for me to take on the trip, I found her 3 t-shirts that rang up $2.24 each. I thought surely she could afford $7-8 and would love to have three new shirts. So I got them, I told her to just give me the money for them next time they got paid and had extra cash, no big deal, she has a few new shirts. That's where I went wrong apparently.

Today I came home to an envelope that said "To You for K's shirts" on the front. On the back it read "You, I worked 4 this I just want to say thanks 4 trying to help & get me shirts but please next time dont get the. B/C I didnt know I was going to have to pay 4 them. Thanks though for thinking about me. That was sweet! (heart) K P.S. I will still use the shirts even though there 2 big :)".

I think I broke my jaw after I finished reading this. This is something my DAD would do. He writes "letters" on envelopes and gives them to my mom and us. Inside the envelope was $5. At least I got SOMETHING, however I am still pissed. I never told her to pay me tomorrow, I said whenever you get paid or a chance to spare the bucks to pay me back.

I need to not care so much about other people. One day I will vow to be a heartless bitch and only care about myself.

Sigh.

Needless to say, tonight I only bought clothes for M & I. Heh. It did feel a lil good. I even splurged and paid full price for a pair of new khaki capris. Gasp. That did kinda hurt.

I Guess It Is True

No, it's not a joke.

Yes, it's a real piece of chicken.

Yes, I wrapped it in tissue and brought it home with me.

Yes, we knew I was crazy--this is just proof!

Yes, I still have it.

No, I don't know what I'm going to do with it.

Yes, only I would see that in a piece of chicken.

Yes, I nearly pissed myself, too!







So I guess it is true, one nut is always bigger than the other.





Shall I call this... fried for her pleasure?

Over 100, Again

Today I checked in over 100 patients again. Man I hate these long ass days. It drives me crazy!!! Although, overall today was a good day. Thankfully!

Only a few more days until we leave. Me and K are so, so excited!!! I can hardly stand it.

Nothing new with my cycle, Im near cycle day 15 or something...blood work next week..pr0vera starts again on the 25th..Boooooooooooooring.

Girls Weekend Getaway

Me and a girlfriend are driving 3-4 hours away next weekend to go to a water park. How awesome is that? She doesn't have her son next weekend so we are going to make a weekend of it! Yeeahhhh baby!!! We are even getting season passes, because we are going to make a trip every 3-4 weeks until they close this fall. Wooo hoooo!!!

Man I need this.

Happy Birthday Baby Girl...

I can hardly believe it's been a whole year. I remember it being a Friday and so anxious to meet you. I had many hopes and fears upon your arrival. It's been a very long year, full of highs and lows. I just want to let you know, no matter what you grow up being taught, just know I love you more than you think. I hope this next year is better than your first. I love you baby girl and I always will.

Happy 1st Birthday Baby A!

Be Thankful

Tonight when I got home from work M was still sleeping. I laid down beside him and he cuddled with me. We talked for a few minutes and my mind started to wonder back when he was in OK and NV and I talked about some things from those times. I basically told him he needed to be a bit more thankful for everything I have had to do for this relationship, I think a lightbulb finally went off, it may have been dim though. But as I was laying there and talking about "those days" he hugged me tighter and said he did need to be thankful for everything I have done. It was nice to hear that, I hope he means it.

Oh yeah, guess what? Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!! Yahoooo!! I do have to be at work at 6 am though tomorrow, that sucks, but it's okay. T.G.I.almost.F!!!!

Our Date...

Our date Monday evening was pretty good. We went to a Mexican restaurant that I went to with my girlfriend Friday night that was really good. We went shopping after dinner. I even got laid. *gasp*

Yesterday I was to upset with M to post about the date. He got a job offer for $5 more per hour starting out and by the end of the year he would be making double what he's making now. Did he call to ask about it? Fuck no. He's happy being a no body. I mean that in the nicest way possible, please don't judge me for being a bitch. I can't stand that he wants to grow up "poor" like his dad and he's perfectly okay with that. I'm not though. I won't live like his dad. I know money isn't everything, but it does pay the bills and raise a family. Anyways, I won't go off about that any more, It will eat me up inside. I just wish he wanted more, is that so bad?

He was a bit of an ass tonight when I got off work but I got upset and started crying so he finally shut up and said he was sorry. And for the record, just because I have sex with him after a fight does not mean I'm not mad at him any more. I hope he knows that, will someone tell him for me? Thanks.

Tomorrow he goes back to work and I am meeting a girlfriend after work with A. I love getting together with her, she makes my emotions with M feel so normal, like I am not a basketcase, or at least to know someone else is suffering with me. Heh.

I wish tomorrow was Friday.

A Day At The Zoo With A!

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Hey A, Are you ready for your first trip to the zoo??

Yeeaaahhhh!!!!!!

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Alright baby, let's get in the stroller and roll!


It's a lil sunny ..hmm I dunno about this....

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Those munk munks are my favorite!!!!!


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Man, I gotta see these loud things up close!

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I talked to these things! (As soon as I can figure out how to upload the video I will post it, it's hysterical!!)

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These things ended up, um, baby dancing.

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Yo, can I get one of these before we go?

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Oh, I love her flip flops!!! We also had a snow cone but we were to busy eating for pics! She did very well for her first trip except she lost her bottle, some where, maybe the baby giraffe stole it! Oh, the ride home from dinner was hell, she was way to exhausted. Very, Very cranky baby!

For The Next Three Months???

Okay, I did the Pr0vera for ten days as the doctor* said. My cycle started a few days later, very mild, not any cramps that I can recall. It ended after 3-4 days. However, since Saturday I have been having dull, annoying cramps. They are like what PMS feels like right before it gets here, but there's been no sign of any more. I called my doctor and the nurse called me back and told me she would get back to me after I talked to the doctor. She asked if I wanted pain meds, I told her I wasn't seeking drugs, just trying to make sure this is what it's supose to do. Of course I hadn't heard back from her by the end of the day, so I asked one of my doctors. She said that it's my body getting ready to do a really big cycle.

I don't want a big cycle. I don't want to spend the summer using up the fourty (no joke) boxes of tampons I have stored thanks to shopping deals. I want to spend the summer in my new bathing suit at the pool. Fuck! Maybe I should wait until the fall to start these pills. Is that selfish? Is it too late?

*I still need to come up with a name for her. Hmm.

As The Week From Hell Comes To An End...

I just want to wave it a big fat Fuck You! Farewell! I am so glad that damn week is gone. The only good thing about it was the weekend, and hopefully the paycheck.


This next week I have only one doctor Tuesday-Friday. It was supose to be all week, but at 5:30 Friday the doc that was taking off Monday told me to reopen her schedule because the doctor canceled her appointment. At least I know it will be about 9 before we get her first patient since the phones don't roll over until 8:30, hehe.

Monday M and I are going on a much needed date night, which should be fun. He told me I might even get laid if I am lucky. Quick! Find me some luck someone, this girl needs it baaaaaad! Tuesday I am taking off half a day to take the baby to the zoo. I asked M if he wanted to go but he probably won't. Oh well, me and the niece will have fun with or without him. Thursday I am meeting my friend A with her kids again.

Alright, only five more days until the weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope everyone has a wonderful week! May it be better than last.

It Never Fails ..

The baby has been asleep since 6pm, thanks to nearly two hours of swimming earlier. I decided it was time to go to bed myself at nearly 10:30..and the funny girl wakes up.

Ha. Ha. Jokes on me!

T.G.I.F!!!!!!!

The weekend has arrived.

Yeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

I Need A Vacation

This week has been very, very bad. I am taking off half a day Tuesday to go to the zoo with the baby. I really need to take a vacation. I may try to book a hotel stay for a three day weekend at the waterpark 3 hours away. I may even go alone or with a girlfriend. I just know I need a break. Eeek!

Tomorrow is Friday, how cool is that?

Big Girls Don't Cry

I love Ferg!e's new song Big Girls Don't Cry.

Today was another hellish day at work. We front desk girls have agreed this has been the longest week, ever. It's pretty bad when your patient walks in and says "Good Tuesday Morning" and you nearly burst into tears, then you realize it's still only Wednesday, so you cry inside any ways.

I have a pretty busy schedule for the rest of the week, tomorrow I am going to my girlfriend A's house to play with her two kids and A is coming with. Friday I am going to dinner with another girlfriend. Sunday I am meeting my girlfriend K, who's son died, for lunch.

My cycle isn't very heavy right now, is this a bad thing? I thought the Provera was supose to be a crazy bitch? So far she's very mild. I'm scared the bleeding will go away today or tomorrow and then it not be a real "cycle". I was supose to go back to the doctor in July but I think I am pushing it back until Sept. We shall see.

Alright, ya'll don't forget tomorrow S0nic drive thru has free root beer floats from 8pm-12am. Yum!! :-)

Round 2

This morning was absolutely horrible and the afternoon wasn't too much better. I could write a whole 'nother blog on working at a doctors office. I love most of my patients, and truly care about them, but some, my gawd they need to shut the fuck up. I worked 13 hours today. I got home in time to see M for 10 mins and now I am going to bed.

To the two patients who seriously put me over edge today, fuck you! Neither of you got what you wanted, I told you nicely you wouldn't but you insisted upon being selfish stupid ass fucks. To the bitch this morning, just fucking go to work, everyone else does!!!!! To the bitch this afternoon, you're fucking crazy!!!

Oh, hehe, I was right, my I got muh visitor today. Yey!! Only 3 more weeks until I start popping the pills again. Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I Lied

I did say I was ready for a new week, didn't I? You know what that means right?

I lied.

The madness began this morning as I woke up late, drove back home twice because of things I forgot, and the fucking MickyD's drive through line was so long causing me to be even later to work.

I checked in over 100 patients today. I *so* wasn't ready for that. I finally got off work 13 hours after arriving. Thirteen fucking hours. I came home and laid down with the baby for two hours. Now, I'm just online messing around when I should be asleep.

I am still waiting for my lovely period to arrive, I'm sure she will come tomorrow now that I have spoke of her tonight. She's sixty-seven days in the making. What's up with this time of year fucking with my body? Last year it was 117 days. And No, I'm not pregnant. I took a pregnancy test last week, silly me. Heh.

Not that anyone else cares, but I am so excited to say there is less than 30 days until Big Brother 8 starts, woooo hooo baby!!!!!!

Bring It On

I'm ready for a new week, I think.

This weekend was spent with a lot of time with the baby girl. Saturday morning we met up with a new realtor at the bux and surfed for some houses to look at. We didn't find a whole lot, and the one house I wanted to check on has fucking sold. Afterwards, we went to Target and the mall. I got brave and decided I would take the 11 month old to see her first movie. I planned it just right though, right at her naptime. Hehe. She fell asleep before the previews were over and I enjoyed Shrek the Third. She woke up as the movie ended, rock on! We were gone for about 9-10 hours and she was fantabulous! Of course, we were gone all day today as well.

M and I haven't been talking too much, when we do I just get annoyed. I wonder if things tend to get a bit worse now that he's working nights. This morning was the first time in a few weeks we slept together for any length of time, about 4 hours. Gasp, he even touched me. Haha! I have tried to plan date nights but those don't work much because he embarrases me in public. We just end up fighting when I mention those things.

Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful week.

Bring it on, baby!

I Got Owies

I am such a flucking klutz. So, I am playing with my sweet princess in the living room floor and what do I do? Oh I land straight down on my right (bad) knee on to a lovely pair of metal pl@ysk00l keys. Yup, you guessed it. A lovely bruise. But wait friends! The fun doesn't stop there. I heard her babbling and coming into the kitchen so I get on my knees and peek around the cabinet and scare her. She turns around and laughs hysterically and tries to crawl away. As she turned around she managed to flip up the mat near the kitchen/living room and I land with my left hand on to four small floor nails sticking up. FUCK! Damn floor repairs!



[We did fix the nails, repairs still going on, but baby can't get hurt normally we have the gate up and rug down.]

The What If's...

I don't want to leave M, I have too much invested, time and emotionally. I just wish he would get a fucking clue every once in a while. Thanks for all your responses. He will NOT go to counseling at all. He's oblivious to the way I feel and says I just overreact. Whatever. He thinks we are fine. I know I'm not really going to go any where, I just wish he would be a bit nicer. He better be happy he's got a woman like me though, most would have bounced by now--or cheated on him.

Well, I have a big weekend planned. I am meeting with a very hot ass realtor tomorrow for coffee and house hunting. Woo Hooo. Then I am meeting my friend D and her son at a local mall. Sunday I am going to meet my friend K, the one who's son died, for dinner. I also need to um, clean.

Hope you all have a great weekend, I should be back on some time this weekend. Love Love!