Monday, April 30
My sister finally took A to the peds for her vaccines last week. She hasn't been to the doctor since she was released from the hospital. Yeah, leave it to the higher power to give this poor baby to a couple of morons. The doctor removed her from formula and put her on 1% milk, no potatos, and no corn. I am not quite sure why no potatos or corn considering she really doesn't eat those things, but anyway. She should be caught up on her vaccines by the time she is two, if she stays on the schedule they gave her. Big if.
'My' baby had a fever Saturday pretty bad, it was nearly gone by Sunday, though. She wasn't too keen on anyone holding her but Grandma, or me. She even whinned when I walked by and didn't pick her out of whoever's lap she was in. I finally left so they could spend time with her without feeling like I was taking over. I love my girl. I can't believe she will be one in about 7 weeks. Yikes!
Sunday, April 29
While I eat my ice cream cone at 10pm, you grab you a bite, too! I didn't get done nearly as much as I had planned for this weekend. Oh well. Maybe I can try to get the list done this week. Ha, maybe.
M started a new job tonight, working nights. I am really hoping this gives us the much needed fresh breath. I want to so badly do a post on relationships, but I just can't get the words right. I have tried many, many times to type and re-type my feelings but, it never comes out right. After going to LNO with my girlfriend and seeing a few blog postings about the not so great side of them, I really want to do it. God, give me the words. Please.
I am supose to hear back from Evilmart this week about my fall. I am almost back to normal, still having a bit of soreness, though. I just can't wait to sleep on my damn left side again!
This week I hope to post about A's first visit to the peds office since she was born (yes, you read that right!), more on relationships, and whatever else enlightens or pisses me off. God bless each and every one of you, here's to another week! May we all get to next weekend sane, or pretty damn close to it, at least.
Insulin was 9, should be under 17.
Prolactin was 5.9 should be between 3-30.
Cholesterol was 191 shouldbe under 200 (down from 201! Go Me!)
HDL was 46.8 (back in normal ranges after being low)
LDL was 122.2 (back in normal ranges after being high)
ALT was 38 should be under 30 (was 32 first week in Jan, 48 second week in Jan, only dropped 10 points in three months. I really shouldnt have taken those pills! Ugh)
Free & Total Testosterone was 49, should be under 45 (up from 41)
Total Testosterone was 2.07 should be under 2.30 (down from 2.37)
Free Testosterone was 10.1 should be under 6.4 (up from 7.1? and 9.6)
I was supose to have a progesterone day 21 drawn, however the lab tech missed it so I have to fucking wait until next cycle. Damn it!
I start the Provera on 5/1 for 10 days. I am very nervous thanks to horror stories. Eeek!
Next round of blood draws due in July. I will probably go see the doctor again in July or August.
Friday, April 27
Last night's sleep, well that was just horrid. Fucking horrible. I woke up at least 10 times trying to roll over on to my left side, but a nice throbbing pain reminded me why I shouldn't.
Today my girlfriend called me and said she wanted to go to dinner tonight for LNO, so we did it! We went to a local deli for dinner. Yummo! I had a ham sammich and chips. And of course their famous sweet tea, with a lemon, please! Her son (A's age) came with us, about an hour into it he got a little rowdy so we went to her house after dinner. We spent 3? 4? hours talking. It was so, so nice to talk to her! I really hope we get out more often.
After I left her house, I went to Evilmart to fill out the paper work. Fourty minutes later he told me he would have someone call within 48 hours. WTF? If I had filled out the paperwork yesterday and waited for them, I'd still be in a lot of fucking pain. He said they would review the tapes and follow my tracks. Nods. Call me!
Back tracking a bit, this morning I hobbled into work and they did four xrays of my hip and did not see a break. I have no outward bruising today. She gave me a shot and two medications to help the pain. However, tonight my left elbow is hurting pretty badly and we didn't xray it, so I may have it checked out tomorrow morning. I still walk with a limp and very slowly. I think I just bruised the muscles near my hip. None the less, I still can't sleep/rest on my left side, which by the way sucks!
I should have all my blood work back by tomorrow, or at the latest early next week. So look forward to that. Good, Bad, and Crappy news!
Wednesday, April 25
Tuesday, April 24
I am having house hunting blues. I want to find the house, and I want to find it now. I have, secretly, two realtors working with me. I just want a good neighborhood, not in the ghetto, in our price range. Grrr. Thankfully, we have time, no rush to move in tomorrow, but I really am anxious!
Monday, April 23
On another note, I was talking with a girlfriend of mine about some relationship problems I was having and it was like she had a light bulb moment. She couldn't believe I was going through some of the same things, too. We both suffer from infertility, PCOS to be exact. We both are dealing with spouse who just aren't as sexually motivated as we wish they would be. We both deal with the sidekicks PCOS brings (hair growth, belly weight gain, hormone levels, etc) She said she was going to marriage counseling tonight. I told her I wanted to have dinner with her one night this week so we could really get a good talk out. I am looking forward to a girls night out. Just me and her. Wow, someone might actually be going through the same shit as me, whoduhthunkit.
I forgot to say, I had my lab work done Friday, the results are trickling back in, there is some good news, and some bad news. But I will make a big ole post once everything is all back. I love lab work, it's so easy.
Sunday, April 22
Thursday I thought I posted, Friday evening it was 11 before I got online and had 4 sleeping kids/babies in my floor so I couldn't stay on too long, Saturday we had a busy day at the nature center, and today, well I've been nursing a bad sun burn and a little garden work.
M starts a new job this week, he will be working nights. This means I will actually get the TV remote at bed time, first time in years! Weeee!
Tomorrow my main doctor is off, so I still get a mini break before the madness on Tuesday begins, again. I hope everyone has a great week!
Wednesday, April 18
Once I am ready I let my car warm up.....
I eat my breakfast.....
Once I am finished, I grab my things....
and head to the car (yes, that's my car seat! I am so short!!)....
Once I get to work (at 7am) I get our money bags out of the safe then head over to my desk...
Look at that, the calm before the storm.....
After I print my schedules for the day I grab me a small cup of coffee with two squirts vanilla cream, 2 reg cream, 1 splenda, and fill 'er up with coffee. I usally have one to three small cups every day. By the time I get back to my desk, I usually have a patient come in.
By 8am, this is what my wall begins to look like....
Since I do work at a doctor's office and I can't show you our waiting room with people in it, just imagine every chair filled and have about 2-6 people standing up between the hours of 9:45-11:15 and 1:45-3:15, almost every day.
I usually get a lunch some where around 11:30-11:45, if my patients come on time....
One good thing about my job, is the view....
After I am done checking patients in, I begin to balance. I hate balancing the money. Especially when we have 80+ patients. It can be a daunting task. I usually wrap up my day for patients around 3:30, some where between 4p-6p I get balanced and I can finally leave....
It never fails, I always forget something and I have to go back one last time....
As I back out of the parking lot, I always get the constant reminder I am not a Mom thanks to A's carseat staring me down....
On the way home I usually think about all the shit I should do, despite feeling utterly exhausted. Like, how bad I need to wash my car....
Once I get home I go right to cooking....
Once we are done eating I usually either do something productive (clean, or the likes) or something not so productive (surf blogs, internet, absolutely nothing).
We usually lay down between 9:30-11 and I almost never fall asleep before 11, usually close to 12a-2a. It can make for a long day for sure. But I close my pretty little eyes to head to dream land, just to wake up and do it again the next day.
Today I checked in over 90 patients, it wasn't hell, but very, very fucking busy. i really felt like I was forgetting some one all day long, but I never did, THANK GOD!
So, who's going to wake up with me tomorrow? Doing it alone isn't nearly as fun...
Tuesday, April 17
Come back tomorrow, around this time, for a
Monday, April 16
Some time this week I plan to do a day-in-the-life of post, maybe tomorrow, maybe. I also need to get some emotions out about infertility.
Congrats to Jenny on da block and her baby girl!
My heart goes out the families and friends of the victims of the VA Tech shootings. There's nothing to say about it, it's so very sad.
Sunday, April 15
I am going to keep this short since M is waiting for me in bed *wink, wink, nudge, nudge*, but I hope everyone has a wonderful week. Nighty Night!
Saturday, April 14
*sing to the tune of Fergie's Glamorous*
B-R-O-K-EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeee! Yeah, yeah, I'm broke! Flossy Flossy!
So, we have a new
Anyways, the only bad thing about the new
So yeah, we are back to being broke, but not for long. We will save up again soon!
This is for E (and anyone else interested!), I was laying down and she was climbing on me as I was taking the picture so I didn't get a good angle, but this is the best (most recent) picture I have of her. It doesn't do the comparison very well, but it's close. Don't forget to notice the bow! LOL Bows are so much fun!
Friday, April 13
Alright ya'll, it's been a very long week. I am so glad it's over. I have a lot to do this weekend, blog, cut coupons, get new tires, get a tune up, and clean up!
So for tonight, goodnight!
Thursday, April 12
I was written up at work today. Yes, pick up your jaw. The assboss wrote me up for "disturbance in the workforce" reguarding my issues with my fellow co-workers. Now mind you, with the exception of these 5 stupid ass fucking idiots, everyone else pretty much loves me! To say I was livid, well, that would be an understatement. I cried. I was so upset. I am still very upset. He basically tried to find something to write me up about before I went to his boss. So game is on, I am going to his boss. I just can't fucking believe these stupid morons did this shit. I am so fucking sick of this shit. So sick. It's pathetic. I just don't even know what to say about it any more. I am speechless. I can't even look at them without wanting to ask them what in the fuck they are thinking.
Oh, that wasn't the best of my excitement for the day. I went to the bank to pull out the cash for the car we were getting tonight, I pull out, and my car dies. She won't turn over at all. So I coast her back and park. I open the hood to find liquid all over the place. Great. Just fucking Great! I called my aunt (who I work with) and told her to come get me and I told assboss I would be back soon. M checked out the car while I was at work and he jumped it and it started up. Long story short, I think the power steering fluid may have come out the sides of the lid and I think I need a new battery. Thankfully, the car drove fine tonight. We also got the H0nda Acc0rd tonight. Yey, we finally have two cars again!!!! Hopefully both of them will behave and let us take care of some other things.
It has been a pretty shitty day. I am heading to bed now. Goodnight, TGTIF!!!
Wednesday, April 11
House hunting is addicting. I can't stop looking for the one. A house we wanted to look at a few weeks ago was in the process of being bought, fell threw and is now on the market again. Yeehaw! I, of course, made an e-mail to the realtor to go see it. I am 98% sure if we liked it we could get the loan with no problem because it already meets federal restrictions, so no worries there! But anyways, more on that later.
After the drama at work, I asked to be moved, againist almost everything inside my body telling me to stick it out. We are finally going to have all the doctors on the end of our hall this coming week, so with that came a new layout for which front desk girl gets what doctors. With two of the three of us going on maternity leave over the next six months, there won't be much stability up here. However, both bosses agreed, moving me would work out best and makes more sense. However, my fellow front desk (and check out) girls didn't agree. Infact, I got talked about for the remainder of the day. Yeah, I know. What grade are we in again? Personal feelings aside, it makes the most sense with the doctors. The personal subtraction away from the drama is just a huge fucking bonus! The flip side, I will be checking in about 100-150+ patients per day. Do you know how fucking scared I am? How many chances a day that gives me to fuck up? Eek!
Tomorrow we will be the owners of a h0nda acc0rd. One car problem almost down, one more to go. M will drive the acc0rd until we save more money and sell my car. Yeeaah!
So, yeah, lots of changes in this lovely household. I am both excited and nervous about what the future brings. But that's normal
Only time will tell if these changes were good or bad.
Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.
Tuesday, April 10
So, our next adventure? Oh no you didn't think I would leave myself some wiggle room did you? Yeah, we are going car shopping. Our plan is to buy two cars in the next three months. Fun Fun!
Wish us luck!
Monday, April 9
I made a few comments around the bitch that went to assboss because honestly I am still upset. I would say something like "I'm sorry, I can't go down there Dr.So&So because my co-workers will go to assboss and tell on me for helping", or "Is it okay to go to the bathroom? Is anyone going to go tattle if I go to the bathroom? Everyone going to manage without me for a few minutes?", or "It must be nice to get out of your seat without permission". I am still annoyed. Fucking idiots. Maybe I do need to go to therapy.
I did get a lot done today though, finally.
I will post crap about the house tomorrow. I can't make up my mind about what to do, but
Sunday, April 8
I have to say I am glad that week is behind me. I haven't been so emotionally hurt from people who I cared about in a very long time. I am still shocked nearly a week later at my co-workers. I still get upset when I think about it. I can't help it. I didn't deserve the bullshit they pulled, and it came out of no where! I am looking forward to seeing what the staff meeting is all about Tuesday though.
We are still stuck with this house situation, I am going to call my realtor tomorrow and we are supose to go see someone in the same state to see if they can enlighten us a bit. I also have another friend who is giving me the number of a realtor down there to see if there is a way around the pit stop. If for whatever reason, we don't get the house, we will hold off on further house hunting until probably July or August so I can get a few things wrapped up I think should be taken care of before we move. I am trying to keep optimistic and let what is supose to happen, happen. But none the less, it's hard. I love this house. I really, really love this house.
Also, M and I had a heart to heart the other night. I will go into details in a later post, but things are hopefully looking up.
Anyways, here's to a great week for all of us.
\~/ [~]D Cheers! [~]D \~/
Saturday, April 7
I went out last night to my brothers house with M and my girlfriend. I had 5 shots and 3 mudslides. Yum! I didn't even have a hang over today either, go me!
Thursday, April 5
I am so glad this week is coming to an end. I'm glad I don't have to deal with the workplace drama for three days. Tuesday we have a staff meeting. How lovely. I am looking forward to the bitchfest. Belch.
Keep your fingers crossed, we have run into a bump with the house but are in the process of finding out what we can do to move forward. Sigh.
Yesterday before I left I asked a co-worker to update 6 patients info (less than 10 mins of work) because I had to meet the realtor in 15 mins, 25 mins away. She said she would but I told her countless times, if she couldn't or didn't want to, then she could just put them on my desk for me to do the next morning. No big deal, really.
Really, very big deal. The bitch apparently went to assboss and told him I made her do my work. He then went on to tell me I was away from my desk to much and asked why I was away at that moment. I told him I was taking a 15 minute break because it was a rough morning and I was done with my patients for the morning. He told me they didn't have 15 minute breaks. But, if I smoked, I could take a break. If I wanted a coke I could go to the vending machine. I looked at him dead in his face and said "So, you're telling me the only way I can get a break is to start smoking? Is that what you are saying??". He looked like a fucking idiot and just said "Uh, or the like.".
I was fired up. Fired the fuck up. I broke out the employee handbook and made a copy of "BREAKS" and it stated we could get two breaks not to exceed 10 minutes, per day. I showed it to him and he said "Well, as you see it says, per the descreion of the Manager, I am your manager and my descretion is you aren't getting them." Ooooh yeah, I was sooo upset after that. I turned around and as I was walking out I said "Oh really? Well let's see what your bosses descretion is!". He said "I think you should" and I replied very pissed off, "I think I will!".
I am still, nearly 12 hours later, upset about this. I can't believe my lazy ass coworkers are doing this shit. Even more upset his dumbass is singling me out. I'm too upset to write a letter to his boss. But I may type and e-mail to the manager over him first to see what he says. I am completely at a loss of words to say to these people. I didn't speak to the two idiots that talked to my boss, at all today. Not one single fucking moan.
I love my job so very much, today was the first day in nearly 2 years I felt like walking out and never coming back. If it wasn't for getting the house, I probably would have.
Speaking of the house, please keep your fingers crossed. It's not accepted or denied but we have ran into yet another speed bump. That bump may, or may not cause us to get this house that we really, really want.
Sigh. Good night. Tomorrow is the last day for a three day weekend. Yippieeee.
Tuesday, April 3
We put the contract in today, above asking price, if they pay closing. I don't know why but I just went above. I figured it wasn't worth bitching a few grand to lose this nice house to someone else. These people are very into their religion and will not deal with house-goings tomorrow due to church. The realtor informed us she may take our contract to the seller, or she would wait until Thursday, she wasn't sure. Whatever. So tomorrow at the earliest, Thursday/Friday at the latest. Fingers crossed. x x
In the mean time, here's a meme given to meme by Destined To Be A Mom, Michelle.
1. If you had to sum up your life in one word, what would it be? disfunctional
2. If you could rule the world, what's one thing you would make mandatory? infertility coverage
3. What's one food that is like a staple in your house? For me? Soda. I must have soda. For M? Lean Cuisines, still.
4. What's one book you could read over and over and over again? You're supose to read books over and over again?
5. Besides infertility, what's one thing you would change about yourself? My self esteem. I feel so ugly, fat, and disgusting, despite other people sayings. I can't wait for the day I can look in the mirror and truly believe I am beautiful inside and out.
Alright, so I am heading to bed, last night I couldn't sleep, hopefully not the same for tonight!
Monday, April 2
So here is the low down...
- Only 15 minutes from work (they are in the middle of expanding the 2 lane road to a 4 lane road, so not too much longer and it may be even less! But still far enough away from the crime.)
- It has a pool. Yes, I've always wanted one!
- It's a very large first time home for us.
- 3 Bedrooms (Master, Office, &
- 1.5 acres (I can finally plant a garden!!!)
- Huge master bathroom.
- Even huger master bedroom.
- The neighborhood seems to be okay, neighbor across the street is very nice.
- Lots of windows.
- Storage shed/unit.
- The deck around the pool will probably need to be redone within the next year or two.
- 1.5 acres (Who in the fuck is going to mow all that???)
- It needs a lot of work, although it's totally ready to be moved in to, there are a lot of things I am so picky about that I want to change!
- The laundry room is so tiny.
- Paint. It needs
five-hundred-billion-gallonslots of paint.
- They just reduced the price, and their realtor said they will not pay closing at the asking price.
- The income taxes for working in one state vs. living in another, suck!
- The interest rate is 1.1% more than what we would pay if we bought in TN.
- It will now take at least an hour to get to my grandma's, with no traffic. Sigh.
The bottom line?
I am in love with the house, despite it's blemishes. Oh yeah, M is too! So, tomorrow we will submit a contract for asking price, if they pay closing. If they say No? We will see what they offer and go from there.
If it's our time, it's our time.
But, are we due?
Sunday, April 1
My cycle started Saturday. I was to start Pr0vera today for 10 days. I don't know if I still need to take them or not. She wanted me to take them from the 1-10th every month for the next three months. I may call tomorrow to ask.
This past week had a lot of ups and downs but ended on a very high note. My birthday was a blast and I might have to start going out with the gang a lot more often. I need the relaxation.
I am going to attempt "a day in the life of" post one day this week. Exciting, huh?
Tomorrow we will go see the house that might be "the house". There is a tiny large problem though, I will explain later.
I hope everyone has a fantastic week. I am aiming for mine to be! :-)