I Don't Know What To Say

Before I update my page I need to send a huge shout out to Krystle, Thank you from the bottom of my heart for nominating me for the Nice Matters Award. It means a lot to know that my babbling words are being read.
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Since M and I have seperated, then got back together, I don't really know what to say about the whole infertility thing. Even though we haven't started treatments yet, we are sorta on a hold right now. Not preventing, but not BDing on XYZ days etc. My girlfriend asked me today if I was going back to the doctor soon to get the prescription for cl0mid, I told her the truth, no. I can't do it.

I am still hurting inside from the month of our seperation to want to go back to the doctor. I find myself snapping at him about things just to be a bitch because I am still hurt about things. Just because I agreed to give him another, his last, chance I am not over the things that were said and done by him.

Despite being preoccupied by moving and being sick, I have been trying to go out with the girls as often as I can. I went out last night and had fun. My legs hurt today, I didn't wake up until 12, and then I took a nap from 5-9. Now it's 11:30 and I am wide awake and I have to work in the morning. But I am okay with that, because I got out.

I need to get back to posting every day, or at least almost every day. It helps me to get my thoughts out on the screen.

I leave you with a picture of me and my gal pals from last night after a few drinks, but before a lot more than that!