Two Steps Back, One Step Forward

*To clarify on the seperation* We will still stay in the same house. After next week I will be house sitting for three weeks so it won't be that hard then. But until then we just see each other when we cross paths, he works nights, I work days. We are never off the same day, either. So it shouldn't be too hard.

Last night he came home around 10 after going out (no big deal) but I was having it bad last night and cried from 10 until 3 when I finally passed out on the bed, beside him as he stayed up all night because he was off and has to work tonight.

Today was really, really rough. I nearly broke down several times at work and at 2:30 I called my boss and told him I need a few minutes away from my desk (I work front desk, hello!) and when I got back he told me to just go home because he could tell I was really upset. So I grabbed my keys, cell, and came home.

I laid down beside M since he was still sleeping and cried. He rolled me over and asked what was wrong. We talked about things and I got a clearer understanding about some things that were making me upset.

So, we did what any seperated couple does, we had sex.

We are not back together and we will continue to stay this way until next month. I feel better about things since we talked about, I just hope I can keep my emotions in check a bit more.

Tonight I am going out with my friend and her b/f and his friend. We are hoping to go midnight bowling or something fun. I am excited. I really just want to get wasted. Ha!