I am finding it odd that I am doing better than expected at my decision. Although it was not an easy one, it has honestly lifted a heavy cloud from my heart. I still love M dearly, obviously. However, I know he has some major growing up to do. Reality will bite him in the ass soon. I just wish he didn't have to learn the hard way. He's lost the best thing that has ever happened to him (besides his family). He is slowly waking up. Too bad it's too late.