Our date Monday evening was pretty good. We went to a Mexican restaurant that I went to with my girlfriend Friday night that was really good. We went shopping after dinner. I even got laid. *gasp*
Yesterday I was to upset with M to post about the date. He got a job offer for $5 more per hour starting out and by the end of the year he would be making double what he's making now. Did he call to ask about it? Fuck no. He's happy being a no body. I mean that in the nicest way possible, please don't judge me for being a bitch. I can't stand that he wants to grow up "poor" like his dad and he's perfectly okay with that. I'm not though. I won't live like his dad. I know money isn't everything, but it does pay the bills and raise a family. Anyways, I won't go off about that any more, It will eat me up inside. I just wish he wanted more, is that so bad?
He was a bit of an ass tonight when I got off work but I got upset and started crying so he finally shut up and said he was sorry. And for the record, just because I have sex with him after a fight does not mean I'm not mad at him any more. I hope he knows that, will someone tell him for me? Thanks.
Tomorrow he goes back to work and I am meeting a girlfriend after work with A. I love getting together with her, she makes my emotions with M feel so normal, like I am not a basketcase, or at least to know someone else is suffering with me. Heh.
I wish tomorrow was Friday.