This blog started out as an infertility blog, however I don't feel like it's a blog just about infertility, but more as a journal of my life overall. Infertility wise I am not in treatments, we don't have coverage or the extra money for it, so I feel like I don't have enough to talk about infertility wise to discuss it on a day to day basis. I seem to write about the same thing over and over again, some times several days in a row. I think it would be best for me to label certain topics for certain days, that way I don't feel like I am writing about the same thing over and over again. Sunday's will be a week end wrap up. Monday's will be for venting about work since they seem to be our busiest days. Tuesday's I will discuss family issues. Wednesday's I will talk about infertility. Thursday's I will discuss relationship issues with M, good and bad. Friday and Saturday I will just leave it open for whatever else, but I will try to limit the other topics, with the exception for infertility, from being discussed on those days. I think this will help ease the emotional crap I have been feeling lately about each of those.
This past week has been a really rough week. I have felt really emotional and depressed. One of my physicain's is off this week, and I am off Thursday and Friday so, hopefully I will have a better week than last. We finally reached our goal to buy a car, so hopefully within the next two weeks we will go and purchase one. I didn't end up getting the SA done before our appointment and I am not even sure if we did it tomorrow if they would have the results back before our appointment on Friday so I may call tomorrow to find out, if not we will wait and talk with her. We got visitation* to see A twice this week. It was really nice to see and play her. She really is growing up so fast. She will be 9 months old this week, what a ride. Thursday I have an important thing to do and I am very nervous about it. I don't want to talk about it on here but I will let you all know how it goes, either way. Friday is the appointment with our new doctor. I am very excited to see her. After talking with a friend, she said she had actually seen her before, for something unrelated to infertility, but that she was very nice, and on the younger side of the group. This next week has some important dates. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers and send some good vibes my way.
On a side note, let me tell you what I am freaking out about most. I am on CD 38, Friday I will be on CD 43. The last five cycles, since the 2nd 117 day cycle, have been 41-44-49-52-43 days. If I start before then I will have to reschedule my appointment since I am trying to get my pap done then too and I really don't want to waste my days having to go back again just for that. So, what do you think my odds are?
*Since Thugboy got into it with K and my mom told him that he couldn't come over for extended periods of time, K and the baby move in with him at his mother's house. They have given us "visitation" to see A once a week. I swear I could go to court and get more time with her. Assholes.