Shopping Addiction

Well, I went and bought me some new clothes today. I really cute white peasant skirt. I love it! I am very short though so I was a bit worried about it being too much for me, but it's pretty cute! I also bought a cute lacy V neck shirt to go with the skirt. I als bought two pairs of capris. One in pink and one in green! I got a size that fits so maybe that means my diet will do really well and they won't fit in a few weeks! Maybe.

CD 69

Saturday, Laid Back & Lazy

Today I didn't do much. We went to a mexican resturant and had lunch. I had nogales nachos (?), it wasn't as good as last time. We then went to the mail an eBay package of mine to Italy! We then went and bought four more fish. Not sure why, we already have wayyyy too many for this tank, but it's an obsession. I can't wait until we move so we can get another tank. More fishy babies! Other than that we came home and haven't done a thing! Weather was crappy. Off to take a warm shower and then going to bed. Nothing new to talk about.

Cycle Day 68

Sister's Pregnancy

I am having a hard time dealing with my sister's pregnancy. First of all there is the aspect that of infertility vs your teenage sister getting knocked up. To be honest, that hasn't been much of my emotional battle. My biggest mental fights are dealing with the fact the father of my niece/nephew is the guy that helped her steal from my grandma/aunt. I really, really hate this guy. He disgust me.

What am I supose to do? Go to the hospital as support for my sister/niece/nephew? I can't. I have already told her I will not be there if he is there. She has obviously picked this punk ass thug over her family so why should I care? I really have trouble thinking this child is going to think I hate him/her because it's parents are both the dumbest people on earth. I don't know what the right/wrong/best thing to do is.

Part of me wants to push this to the back of my mind then deal with things as they come once she has the baby. But I also need to mentally prepare myself for this. I know I would have other things to deal with if the father just wasn't this prick. *Sigh*

What would you do? I guess I need to hurry and decide there is less than 60 days to go..

Oh how my heart breaks. :-(

CD 67

Gas Prices

I just have to whine about gas prices for a moment. This is really getting crazy! Here it is around $2.83 a gallon, higher in other places I am sure, but good greif! We are in the process of saving for a new vechile. We were looking into maybe a Ford Focus. We still have to research it a bit. Feel free to drop me a line about them if you have one! How high is gas where you are?


...Forgot something...

Cycle Day 65.

Working & Working Out

Yesterday after work me and 3 yr old C went on a walk. We went to the lake and played with the ducks, then we went and played on the swings/slides. It was fun. He fell asleep in the stroller on the way home. Wore him out!

I have been sticking to my diet, not cheating. Yey. Excercising every day too. So far, so good. My favorite snack is frozen grapes, Yum!

On the TTC front, still no sign of AF. I haven't taken another pregnancy test yet. I took my temp the other morning and it seemed low so I didn't bother waiting a test. I am really having a hard time dealing with yet another long cycle. I was hoping my cycles were coming back to 'normal'. I guess I am just waiting to see how long it holds out.. Cycle Day 64.

Sun Sick?

Well today I woke up feeling like crap. I took four naps and felt pretty crappy the rest of the time I was awake. I am guessing maybe I got sun sick? I hope it goes away tonight, I have, I think, one more week on early mornings. Off to bed now.

Cycle Day 62

Lovely Weather

Well today M & I took my neighbors two kids to the local Nature Center as it was free to get in for an hour. It was crazy to get in but once we got in we hit a path and just kep walking. The stroller was a pain in the ass to use on some of the paths with only dirt. Never the less, it was peaceful. Just walking and talking. The kids enjoyed it too. Along the paths every once in awhile they would have a table set up. Some we did (feeding the fish, turtles, etc) and some we didn't. There was even a pavilion of kids with their drums that were beating all in a group, that was pretty neat to listen/watch. On the way home we decided to grab something to eat and the we took the kids to the dollar store (a kids dream, pick anything you want! Reallly?!?!?!?! Haha ) We then got a kite and water balloons at Walmart and came home and had a water balloon fight for a bit. Afterwards the kids and I went to the park and flew the kite. It was really fun. I have a tan (slight burn) now! Lovely weather for sure, 84 for a high and sunny.

TTC Front: CD 61

I Don't Hav Balls, Damn It!

Well my testosterone came back today. I don't have balls but I have high testosterone! Of course she wants me to go on b/c pills. I still need to do some research to find out what it all means though.

Testosterone, Free & Total 45 (should be between 2-45)

Testosterone Free Percent 1.76 (should be beetween 0.70-2.30)

Free Testosterone 7.9 (should be between 0.1-6.4)

So now what?

Who knows.

Cycle Day 59.

Diet & Sleep

Monday I started eating right again. I am not obese but I am a tad "overweight". So here we go again..ack! Speaking of diets,look what came in the mail today. Yep, I am a nut. I ordered a case. :-)

On the flip side of dieting my body has been extremely tired. I have been very sleepy over the last few days. I came home last night and went straight to bed. I did wake up at 10 for a sip of diet rite then went right back to bed. *Yaawwwwwwwnnn*

Cycle day 58. No sign.

Their Baaaaaaaaack

My lab results were ready today.

April 06 (cd 49? 50?)
FSH: 5.5
LH: 10.1
Insulin: 8

Feb 06 (CD 20)
FSH 3.5
LH 6.8

According to doctor all is normal but after talking with some one they pointed out my LH is twice the FSH both times and that's PCOS-y and it should be 1:1 not 2:1. I am currently on CD 56 with no signs of her. Dr who ran the test wants to put me on birth control.

Ugh. It's fustrating. Anyone have any advice on where to look on PCOS?

Happy Easter!

Well I took a test.. Negative. I didn't really expect a + any way. Oh well just means my body really is fucked up. Lab work should be back in the next few days. Still no signs. Cycle Day 55.

Today we don't have many plans. I need to run to the store but other than that nothing. I am still hurting in my pelvic/leg area. Ugh.

I hope everyone has a Happy Easter!!

Pelvis Hurts Like A Bitch!

Ugh! My pelvis hurts so bad, and I didn't even get 'any' for it to hurt! The only thing I can think of is it came from taking pictures and having to bend up and down every five seconds to adjust the item for a better shot. Hmpf!

Update on wanting to test: I am going to buy a test tonight after M gets home. I don't know if I will use it tomorrow morning or not. Part of me doesn't want to deal with the Neg I know will be there. Sigh.

Cycle Day 54.

Tell Me Not To...

All of the sudden, today I want to test! There are no real reasons I should other than being on CD 53! Tell me not to. Tell me I am wasting my money. Tell me not to given in. Tell me it will be Negative and I won't have to pay a piece of plastic to tell me that when I can have you, and YOU, and yeah you in the back..you can tell me that. I've only had one other cycle last this long, and that was the 117 day cycle.

Oh what to do what to do..

Thank Goodness It's Friday!!

I mean Thursday! Yahoo!! A three day weekend and no show to have to work! Ahh! I was able to catch up on almost everything at work. I still have about 15 medical records to copy but there is only so much I can do in one day.

This weekend is going to be a productive weekend. I am planning on adding 200+ things to eBay. It won't be easy but I should be able to get it done if I push myself!

CD 52. No cramping. No sore breast. No nausea. Nothing. Nadda. Still.

Also if you are reading, send my dear friend Larisa some good vibes for tomorrow. Here is to good beta numbers, xoxoxo!

Happy Birthday, Mom!

Today was my Mom's birthday. Last night I planted her flowers on her front porch pots. They look really good! After work we went to eat Mexican food. It was fun. It was just M, my Mom, sister, and myself. I brought her in a cake after we ate. It was really yummy! She had fun but yikes I'm broke!

I had my blood drawn today, five tubes. Fun Fun. Still no sign of AF.

No sore breast.
No cramping.

N o t h i n g.

I wonder if I should grab a pregnancy test tomorrow after work or not. I have yet to POAS this cycle. I don't "feel" pregnant so that's why I haven't tested yet.

What are the chances.. 1 in five hundred thousand four million three hundred and twenty six point one four nine?

Yeah, you get my drift.

I'm Doing It Damn It!

Today marks day 50 in my cycle. I am getting pissed off. This is annoying! I talked to one of the doctors at my office today to see if she knew about PCOS. (I have had a few people tell me I sound PCOSy) The doctor I went to in Feb I really just didn't like. The doctor at my office said we could do some lab work tomorrow if I wanted to and then we would sign me up to have an ultrasound to check on my ovaries. So tomorrow I am getting my lab work done. I don't know if I will have any blood though, there's a lot on the list! I should have the results back within a week.

News Alert: The Word Is Out

My mom told my grandma today about my sister. She took it a lot better than I expected. Now I am just waiting to hear back from the rest of the family. Fun Fun.

Nothing new going on in babyland.

Cycle day 48.

150th

This is my 150th post.

Today was the last day of my show, it was from 9-1. I had to stop on the way home to a customers house to drop off an order. They were excited. Overall I think this was a very successful show. I will tweak a few things and then I will be ready for the next show in July/August. I was able to get some info from another vendor on other shows. I will have to check into them. I came home around 2 and slept for a few hours.

I ended up spending $170 on clothes, strollers, carseats and other things for my sister. I don't know why I did it, but I did.

Today is cycle day 47.

Boss, Tornado, & Show!

I got to my show this morning and I saw my BIG boss, the second highest up. I had requested off but it still is just so weird to see your big boss when its a work day!

Around 11ish I got a call that they had let the schools out, apparently weather was getting bad and our schools NEVER let out for just rain. I did get a little nervous, parents were trying to get out with crying kids. The sirens started going off and they spotted a tornado they thought some where near us. So they evacuated us into a room with no windows. Thankfully the national weather service is actually inside that same building, go figure! So they told us not too much later that we could go back out. The kids were pretty good in the tiny room, a lot quieter than I expected them to be considering how many little ones there were. It came as fast as it went. No major damage and no touch down.

So far the show has gone pretty good. I have sold something and recieved quite a few good leads. Everyone has been oo-ing and aww-ing! Makes you feel great when people like what you sell. I am pretty exhausted though. Glad its over at 1 tomorrow.

Today is cycle day 46.

If it doesn't end some time this week I may take a test next weekend.

Not getting my hopes up.

I would also like to send out big hugs to my friend Larisa.

Website Is Finally Finished!

Well I am so excited to say my website for my diaper cakes is up and running. I love it! I can't believe I finally got the damn thing done after so long!

Well today wasn't too bad at work, I managed to get caught up on last weeks Medical Records, except the part of entering them into the computer, oh well.

I am cycle day 43. Hmpf.

One more full day/night until my show. I am getting nervous..

Just Another Manic Monday...

lalalala...

Well I stayed up until 2:30am making lollipops for my show I should have known better to do that on a Monday. I got a call at 5:30am, less than 3 hours after falling asleep! My brother was arrested and wanted to let us know he could get out at 12. Dumbass was drinking and driving, I detest drinking and driving. I have lost too many people to it. But he kept messing with the police, asking him if they were going to stop for donuts before going to the police station. Yep, that's my brother for ya, always stiring em up! I had to check in for three doctors this morning and three this afternoon. I though I would be able to get some of the medical records done as well, but I was clearly mistaken. I finally got off at 5 and had to run across town to set up my table for my slot at the sale this week. I got a really good spot luckily! Then I came home and finished getting a few packages ready to go out in the morning and I finished tying my business cards on the lollipops. I am heading to bed now, at a little after 12am, hoping for more than 3 hours of sleep!

Only two more days until my show, getting nervous but prepared!

I am also on cycle day 42..I think I have another week left before the bitch arrives but I really wish she would stay away until after the show, I really can't handle a bunch of pregnant bellies, new moms, and AF. Hopefully someone senses that and will help me out, we'll see!