The situation with my sister and the baby is really upsetting me. She is still constantly feeding the baby. Just tonight she gave her over 10 oz of formula over 2 hours. Why is it fair for two dumbasses to have a child but I can't? What in the hell am I learning by going down this journey? I am not any more patient, just more pissed. God, if your listening could you please enlighten me as to what I am supose to learn? I can't handle the pain. It's not making me a happy person. I am breaking up inside. Please, I need a break from bad things. Good things, mkay?
Health wise I have had a lot to deal with as well. My aunt had a lump in her breast and they told her there was a 99% chance it was breast cancer. The next day she found out it wast just a cyst, so very thankful. A co-worker, T was found out this week she has a tumor near her brain. They said it's too small to operate on. I pray it doesn't get worse, she's only in her early 40's. A doctors wife at my office ended up finding a knot in her breast. She came in yesterday. He took off today. I am praying so much for their family. I am hoping for good news on Monday but feeling nervous since he never takes off.
I also got my yearly review today. I was a bit nervous about it. The past couple of weeks have been rough between me and the assistant office manager so I was worried that would play into the review instead of the fact that over the past year, my first year, I have learned over 5 job positions and everything to do with them. Thankfully the review went my way. Apparently I am spoiled and an use to $1-2 per year increase. I got a whooping 4%. Not much but better than nothing. I guess most people only get a 2-3. Rarely a 4. So go me! He said I would have had more if I didn't have 8-9 missed punches. I had no clue those counted againist you or I would have actually made an effort NOT to forget my badge. Damn it!
Please let next week be better.
BDfest is underway...Only a week or so until I know if I have ovulated. Not another crazy cycle I hope.
On a final note, yesterday marked the four year anniversary of my cousin's death. She was missing for 98 days. Her body was found at the bottom of a lake in her car. She was just fifteen. No foul play so "they" say but I still can't wrap my brain around how noone saw her drive off the road on a clear, sunny August Saturday morning.
Jennifer,
I miss your smile.
We all miss you.
May you rest in peace.
Love You
4 comments:
I'm sure you're learning a lot. I know I am, but I keep telling myself, there is no purpose to this, only cause and effect. It's tough.
Seeing people fall ill around you is scary.
Congratulations on the raise (I hope that will help with the move) and good luck this cycle.
Sorry for the tough week. Hope this week is better. Hang in there.
That's so tragic about your cousin. You have a lot to deal with at the moment.
And...10oz over a two-hour period! That is a lot of milk. Does she know what she is doing?
Em, Yes she does. She doesn't believe me. Her and the father dont care what I say. Their kid. Whatever. Ugh!!
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