The situation with my sister and the baby is really upsetting me. She is still constantly feeding the baby. Just tonight she gave her over 10 oz of formula over 2 hours. Why is it fair for two dumbasses to have a child but I can't? What in the hell am I learning by going down this journey? I am not any more patient, just more pissed. God, if your listening could you please enlighten me as to what I am supose to learn? I can't handle the pain. It's not making me a happy person. I am breaking up inside. Please, I need a break from bad things. Good things, mkay?
Health wise I have had a lot to deal with as well. My aunt had a lump in her breast and they told her there was a 99% chance it was breast cancer. The next day she found out it wast just a cyst, so very thankful. A co-worker, T was found out this week she has a tumor near her brain. They said it's too small to operate on. I pray it doesn't get worse, she's only in her early 40's. A doctors wife at my office ended up finding a knot in her breast. She came in yesterday. He took off today. I am praying so much for their family. I am hoping for good news on Monday but feeling nervous since he never takes off.
I also got my yearly review today. I was a bit nervous about it. The past couple of weeks have been rough between me and the assistant office manager so I was worried that would play into the review instead of the fact that over the past year, my first year, I have learned over 5 job positions and everything to do with them. Thankfully the review went my way. Apparently I am spoiled and an use to $1-2 per year increase. I got a whooping 4%. Not much but better than nothing. I guess most people only get a 2-3. Rarely a 4. So go me! He said I would have had more if I didn't have 8-9 missed punches. I had no clue those counted againist you or I would have actually made an effort NOT to forget my badge. Damn it!
Please let next week be better.
BDfest is underway...Only a week or so until I know if I have ovulated. Not another crazy cycle I hope.
On a final note, yesterday marked the four year anniversary of my cousin's death. She was missing for 98 days. Her body was found at the bottom of a lake in her car. She was just fifteen. No foul play so "they" say but I still can't wrap my brain around how noone saw her drive off the road on a clear, sunny August Saturday morning.
I miss your smile.
We all miss you.
May you rest in peace.