Whatever my body is going through, PCOS, or otherwise, I feel ugly. I have always had low self esteem. Maybe it comes from growing up and being talked bad to every day of your life and being abused and feeling like you can't quite get any lower. Who knows. Whatever it is I feel ugly. The excess hair, the fat, all of it. I got my haircut tonight thinking it would help me feel a tad bit better, but now I can't find my straightener and I know! my sister has taken it. I am in tears. Damn it. Fuck it. Damn it. Ugh Ugh Ugh!