Hello, My Name Is..

I work at a doctor's office and I have decided to start keep a log of the different names I come across...What were these parent's thinking..or where they?

So far I have come across..

Roach Walker (I wonder what this child did to deserve this name!)
America (Parents who love their country!)
Phat Ho (Yeah, they are chinese, but it's still a funny name)
Phat Le (See Above Comment)
Ptosha (Her parents should have stayed in school longer.)

I will update this list every time I hear a new one.

My mom would prefer us name our son Jack, but the above sound very appealing.





NOT

Sunday = Laundry Day

A few months back I decided I would only do laundry on Sundays.

The only thing I hate about laundry is putting it away..

Luckily for us, we only have 3-4 loads of clothes/towels per week and one load with our bed sheets.

Now...back to that whole putting the clothes away thing...Anyone want to come put them away? or put the sheets back on the bed?

Arg, it's such a bitch!

Positive & Negative Vibes

My mother is a very negative person. Always thinking negative and says nothing ever goes right for her.

I was trying to explain to her that if you think negatively of course negativity will come your way.

Lately I have been trying to think positively hoping positive things come back to us.

There have been few good things that have happened over the last past few weeks, I hope it continues.

When Can We Stop?

I was checking my chart, I probably won't ovulate until Thursday or Friday..

We started our BDFest on August 22nd..every other day..until next Monday September 5th.

.~*~Baby*Dust~*~. to myself!! (and of course any one else who needs it!)

Katrina's Path

My prayers and thoughts are with everyone who is in Hurricane Katrina's path.

She's a monster.

God Bless.

Girls Night Out....Again

Last weekend was my friend's baby shower....after talking one day this week we decided to go out tonight for dinner..

But it's not just any girls night..

We will be meeting up with a friend who I haven't seen in 7 years.

So hard to imagine what she's going to be like.

My preggo friend said that E had been asking about me lately.. So we called her up and we will be going to dinner in a few hours.

Guess I need to straighten my hair and try to hide this humn-go zit that I got over night :-(

Strawberry Daquiri here I come!!

Oh yeah did I mention we were eating Mexian again??? lol....

Funny thing is I called Preggo and talked to her for a few minutes and she said they had gone to this same place we are going to tonight yesterday..which was the same place me and my other friend went last night LOL.. so we may or may not go back to this mexican place.. I just want a strawberry daquiri so we shall see...

Just Be Happy You're Still Young!

We are both in our early-mid twenties...

Everytime someone finds out how old we are and how long we have been trying they say "Just Be Happy You're Still Young!"

I am *VERY* thankful we have started our journey so young but it's almost a double edged sword like I can't greive because I am *too* young but yet I still suffer month to month with the hoplessness and hopefulness.

Forgot To Temp

I hope I didn't ovulate and not know it lol...I forgot to set alarm to temp this morning and woke up 3 hours later than I normally wake up and temp..so I said fa-get-about it!

Im still probably a few days away from O though..

Girls Night Out

Tonight I went to dinner with a friend and we spent just over two hours talking and eating Mexican food! It was fun. We usually meet once a week but she usually has her kids so with just the two of us it was fun having girl talk!

I told her we should do it again soon. She suggested next time lets get a pedicure so maybe we will do a pedicure and a light dinner next time. Maybe McAllister's Deli mmm!

Bottoms UP!

Oh the things we do to try to get pregnant...

We baby danced and when I was done Matt gave me two pillows to put under my ass..so here I lay..for 30 minutes...Half Naked.. with my ass on a pillow....I am pretty pettite so it kind of hurt my back and legs lol...

Then Matt said "Friday night just lay your legs on the wall so it wont hurt so bad."

Funny honey..Jusssst Funny.

She Gets IT!!....or Does She?

My 8mth pregnant friend came over tonight and we were talking.. She was kind of trying to ask me why I didn't come to her shower and I just finally told her that I just can't quite be around pregnant bellies right now, it's just too sad for me. I love her dearly but any way you look at it, it's just too hard for me. So we began talking about why it's hurtful and I told her we had been trying for almost 14months. She had no idea. She was kind of suprises and kept asking me if we were sure Matt was "doing it right". Um, Duh. You stick it in, and you're doing it right. DoH!

Then I showed her my charts on fertility friend.. and we were talking pretty indepth....

Then we began talking about an old "friend" whom we haven't really seen in a few years...and she asked if I knew she had an abortion. I told her I had heard something about it. Then she says (she will never outwardly speak about her previous abortion..acts like she never had one.) "Oh, I could never have an abortion..Well actually I did say I would have one if we get pregnant soon after this baby"...

OMG I am just spilling my heart to you about our troubles in conceiving and you're going to blubber about having an abortion if you get pregnant again soon?

Ughhhhh I just sat there dumbfounded.

Just as I thought she was kind of 'getting it'...she goes off and says that...

Damn fertiles.

What's That Knocking Through The Walls?

Um, excuse us!

BDFest begins tonight...every other night...until probably cd 30.

So if you hear knocking on the walls....excuse us!

BFP Bound!!!!!!!

My Turn To Work Clinic!!!

Yey!! Tomorrow starts my week to work the clinic. I am so excited I LOVEEE!!! working the clinic, yeah its a hell of a lot more work but I hate being stuck in the records room. Blah!

Now I have to go get all my scrubs off the bed and hang them up and pick out which ones I will wear tomorrow..scrubs are so comfy and so fun to mix and match em!

Why Didn't You Come To My Baby Shower?

I guess from the outside looking in, I was a total bitch for not going to my friend's baby shower yesterday.

But I had a good excuse, But that wasn't 100% the reason I didn't go.

I didn't feel like having babiness all in my face to someone who never meant to get pregnant and had an abortion just 3 months before getting pregnant with this one.

One day she may understand but even if she doesn't...tough shit. :-)

She will still get her diaper cake in the next few days when she comes over.

And I will be in the labor/delivery room with her... and come this winter..I will watch her son while she works...

But I just can't handle a pregnant belly right now. I hope one day she understands.

Oh yeah, my cousin had a wedding yesterday so that's why I didn't go to her baby shower.

13 Months Into It

Well I tried to start a blog a few months ago but I am going to really try to put my thoughts and feelings into this and maybe it will help or at least allow me to look back one day at these trials and tribulations.

Who are we?

Well I am a 20 something who has been trying to get pregnant since July 1st, 2004. He is also a 20 something who has just kind of been 'going along'. Or at least that is how it feels most days.

I have longer than "average" cycles lasting around 37ish days with a LP of 12-13 days.

I seem to be ovulating as CM, temp drops, etc seem to be on point with it.

We suspect we may be dealing with male factor infertility.

My parents conceived me "by accident" and had two other accidents as well..

His parents tried 15 years to become pregnant dealing with male and female factor infertility.

Although infertility is not heraditary they say that unless your parents have dealt with infertility the chances are slim that you will have to deal with it too.

Knowing deep in my heart pregnancy is a very distant dream we deceided to try now(then)!

Here we sit 13 months later and still no baby, not even as much as a damn BFP.

So here you will read my inner thoughts and feelings as we continue down this path of uncertainty and dreams which seem so far away.

Two More Makes Too Many

Saturday (8/13/2005) I got a phone call saying my cousin is pregnant, and about 5-6months along. But no one wanted to tell me. Kinda glad on one hand but on the other stunned. She's been having problems with this pregnancy though so I feel like I can't say too many mean things about it.

Wednesday (8/24/2005) I was in Wal-Mart buying walls (kidding) and I was walking down this aisle and someone taps me on my shoulder, I turn around and its a high school friend that I haven't seen in about 4 years maybe five. We were talking and she was like "Yeah I have a 1 yr old and one on the way!" It's sad. People who I am going to school with are having kids yet I can't. Why them? Why not me?

Man, this seriously sucks.

Hmpf.